uncle news dad camping in yes i'm aware it's 2016.

so like i mentioned in my last entry my uncle’s in town. yeah he’ll probably move here [he’s from here actually he just lives in CA. the one who talks a lot once he’s retired. oh ‘here’ being CO] um so yeah we all went out to lunch on Thurs. to the thai place it was nice. um.............right so i think the oh so during lunch we ran into my sister’s former boss Mr. Lee. he was having a business meeting. he’s really nice. anyway. right so i think the reason my uncle’s visiting now is so he my dad can go camping. yeah i don’t go.........camping. when I was little evidently I went w/ my dad.i think. but then i got older and things um developed and now.........well that’s why i wouldn’t go w/ my dad. also that just doesn’t seem right to go tent camping w/ a rela..........uh but anyway.
no um I like the outdoors but I don’t really like.outdoors activities. like hiking. also w/ hiking there might be rivers and I don’t like rivers. [well what i call ‘rivers’ are actually what most people would call a ‘creek’. which i just figured out now after thinking about how big the hudson and the thames are. like those are some big rivers. well by my standards]. i don’t hunt I don’t fish I don’t hike and I don’t go white water rafting although i like it. I also don’t swim but that can also be an indoor activity. yeah i don’t do...........things that involve people looking at my body. not usually anyway.

um so as i’ve mentioned my uncle was here this summer. so on Thurs. the 28th of.........like either June or July. while we waited for the hinges of my computer to get fixed at the place um we walked around the area. it was like a strip mall outdoor plaza place. outdoor mall things don’t appeal to me. yeah southlands is one and in the winter that just seems like a bad idea. like you go inside a store come back out into the damn cold and then go in again. instead of having a ‘normal mall’ which is indoors and warm.except for in the summer yeah ac is weird. um but yeah. At the little area there was a Chipotle, a pets mart, a burger place. oh the asphalt smelled like the train museum. yeah my uncle mentioned that. he said his dad used to take him. I’ve been i mean not not w/ his dad/my grandfather but yeah.
they think his dad had asperger’s. he was in the war a field medic never talk about it. [well yeah he might’ve had ptsd. hey i don’t talk about what happened to me either but now that’s cause i did and i regret it. people who know say we should talk about it. well sometimes it’s actually better not to. they don’t understand. and i didn’t either or fully get it either for awhile. untill i told someone and.......yeah]. he never talked much. yeah um after the ashes thing at the cabin my Aunt Helen or someone was saying that their dad wasn’t around much and she said “unfortunately that’s the dad i remember”. I didn’t say anything to that cause my own dad was right there but yeah.........i get that. not that my dad was in the war or anything but when i was in HS he was. physically there but that was pretty much it. yeah I remember talking to Michael [garone] about that. i’ve been thinking about him lately Michael.
So at the plaza place there was also a king’s.where we went in and got food. he got us mac cheese and he got chicken. he paid i let him use my king’s card. it was the least i could do considering he got us food. like here i’ll save you money. no it was fine. um so we sat in front of the unlit fireplace and ate. ya know.........he’s a nice guy. he talks a lot and is a lot to be around. but he’s a nice guy careful listener. well he should be cause he’s a teacher. I’d always thought of him as my uncle which well he still is.but it wasn’t up untill recently that I’ve started thinking of my relatives as playing roles other than..........like well my relatives. like my cousin Jim is a dad now. [well ‘now’ he has been for 2,3 yrs.] instead of oh he’s my cousin jim. ya know i mean there’s mroe than that.
so while we ate I mentioned to my uncle that ‘those are some green socks you got there’ cause well they were. ‘they are. they get noticed’. We talked about dogs and dogs vs. cats. I prefer cats cause they’re not clingy. no i love cats. yeah i don’t much like clingy people either or attentive ones as we’ve discovered. and as i’ve mentioned. like w/ dogs it’s omygod will you go away. leave me alone for an hr. I like the big mellow ones. nothing against anyone who has one but i’m not much for english bulldogs. yeah my aunt my mom’s sister likes cats. she has a cat. she’s always had.........cats. well one at a time. there’s something creepy about 4 or more cats. w/ dogs it’s not like that. if there’s a dog like at a cafe or somewhere i’ll say hi to it but if it’s w/ its person i won’t. oh and i’ll wave at them too. and children. w/ dogs you’re not obligated to stay and talk to them you can leave whenever. whereas w/ people it’s uhm.......i hadn’t really planned to stay so......... small dogs scare me they look so damn breakable. it just seems odd. I have that w/ big lizards too no animal should be that size. which is funny cause i love elephants.
uh so also.while we ate we talked about tv shows. well we talked about ‘big bang’. my uncle asked why I liked it. well it’s funny and I think it’s a good show. and i relate to it cause they don’t quite fit into this world and neither do i. that’s not something i’ve told a lot of people.
so on the following Fri. we got dinner at whole foods. I had falafels that was it. we talked about nutrition. and his job. He um teaches ecology and he has like.........he his students do this ecology restoration thing. i don’t remember why but for some reason i thought his work had something to do w/ animals. but no plants. and I didn’t know he taught ecology untill recently. he asked why i’m a vegetarian. well it’s funny since I’m actually not. as evidenced by the fact that i had chicken nuggets last wk. at wendy’s. no but um ‘everyone’ thinks i am. and I told him it’s cause I don’t like the taste of meat. [well. i don’t like the taste of steak and steak’s meat]. and my uncle goes ‘that’s the only reason i’m not one’. no it’s more that i’m a food-e-terian. like i don’t love food. i just eat it for functional purposes. yeah i remember one time jazmin my ex’s roommate’s girlfriend she said something like ‘i could never be bullimic cause i llove food way too much’. or maybe it was anorexic? idr. valerie also loves food. and the more she’s around me the more she annoys me but not bc of that. also evan apparently loves food. yeah back in the day he goes to my fridge gets parmesan and eats it right out of his hand and i’m like ‘uh what are you doing’. for me parmesan always goes w/ pasta.
So my uncle said one of his students was one a vegetarian i mean. but then she got sick and so she had meat and she got better but now it’s like ruined her or something. well and the other reason is meat’s expensive. and if i bought some at like the store then it’d have to go in the fridge and. then people would know and that’s just not my way.
It’d been so long since i actually bought groceries w/ cash that I was surprised by how much i’d spent at albertson’s the other day. like well on my ebt card i have a certain amount and so when I go to the store I spent it like you’re supposed to.and so then i call and see how much I have remaining and write that down. but like w/ cash if you have 20 and you spend 10 of it then you can see like actually physically see that you have 10 left.whereas if it’s on a card it’s invisible though it somehow exists [ok so i might be a bit tired].........yeah i’ve been going to albertson’s a lot lately and which.is where i spend cash. but eventually i’ll start bringing my card w/ me.if i have enough left over which i usually do.