I'm not dead, I just feel like it. in Friends With the Benedicts

So, as yall may remember, or prolly not, I had surgery on the 4th. My bday was on the 29th, and that was also the day I had to do all of my pre surgical appointments so I had to stay the nite with my Mom the nite before to make sure we made it on time. Well, we went and did all that, and then had Subway for a sort of Bday lunch afterward. To be honest, we prolly would have had it either way since it is the only place inside the hospital to get something to eat. LOL. Well, surgery day came, and I went thru it just fine, but man! My status for today:

Wow, this surgery has been kickin my ass man! I have been MIA and only wanting to sleep or take good drugs. LOL. My hysterectomy was a breeeeze compared to this shit. They cut me horizontally way down low like a c section. I have that, and my belly button, and one other entrance on the left side. They removed scar tissue from my insides that was left after my hyst. as well as the two cysts on my left ovary, and one that had snuck in and formed on my right one. I still have both ovaries so I am sure that I will be going thru this again in a few months. Maybe next time they will just take em. Aughhh.... hurts. Love you all tho! Thanks for your continued support! And as always, the best wife in the world Laura has been there, getting me things and doing all the stuff around the house that I can’t. I don’t know what I would do without her.

Yea, shit hurts! Imma take a pic real quick, hang on. OK, here is a pic of my tummy, it is my belly button area.

Yea, and yes, it does feel just as bad as it looks. LOL.

I just have to share this. I know it’s corny but it made me laugh!

OMG! As I am writing this, I am trying to work on my hearing as well. I have always had problems with my ears due to sinuses, their small size, etc. and for the last two days, I haven’t been able to hear very well out of both fuckin ears! I was putting some peroxide in my left ear and using qtips as well, and got the bright idea that if I could just build up some pressure or have something to suck stuff out of, that might do the trick. No, my mom does not have one of those baby snot sucker things all you new moms seem to have stock in! LOL. I wish, especially now! So I, genius that I am, decide to use a syringe. I stuck it in my ear and omg when that thing built up pressure, I could tell if I just pulled it out it would not be good. So I eaaaased it back down, but the damage had been done already. Now my left ear drum is even more pissed and is bleeding. I know it’s the drum and not the canal or anything because I wanted to put some peroxide on whatever it was that was bleeding, and I have to stick the qtip in pretty far to touch it, and when I pull it out, only the tip has blood on it. Ugh. Save the lectures, I know this part of my entry might have some of you with your mouths hanging open, but I know every single thing yall are thinking, trust me. I have been at war with my ears for a very long time, and if there was any way to get around using the no-no product of Q Tips, I would. I do not use them every day, however, I would venture to say not even every month. My ear canals are so tiny, I can barely get one up in there as it is. But every single time I shower, when I wash my hair, I get water in my ears. That isn’t that big of a deal to some. But for me, it means 2 days minimum of near deafness on at least one side. And I do what I can, but usually I just deal with it. It’s not usually this bad, like involving both sides. OK enough ear talk. :)

Oh, my Bday, let’s touch on that. First of all, I am freakin 35 now, which is weird for some reason! I dunno, it just sounds, and no offense to anyone that age or older, but olllld. LOL! I’ll get used to it. At least we’re not having kids anymore so I don’t have to worry about that ticking timebomb. Ya know, omg I’m, blank age and I need to get pregnant soon! Or omg if I get pregnant now will my baby be born with downs? Ya know, shit like that. LOL. Now all I have to look forward to is death. Yea, that sounds about right. Ha! But anyway, so my bday was kinda a bust. I mean, I had all this build up in my head, then I had to go to those pre-op appointments and I came home and passed the fuck out! Laura was, oh I think she was already asleep? No, she umm oh yea, she woke up when I got there but I was like, you can go back to sleep cuz I could use a nap. I slept till about ohhhhh, 7pm the next day! And that was about 9pm when I went to sleep! LOL. Oh, I was sleeping a lot before my surgery. I’m sleeping a lot now too, but it was real bad before. Those cysts were like a damn drug, I swear. So yea, I slept thru my bday. LOL. Laura still hasn’t even made me my bday dinner or the cupcakes. lol. But that’s ok, I took like, 2 weeks when it was her bday to make hers. :) BUT - I know I didn’t write about this, because not even FB really knows, since I keep forgetting haha! My Mom surprised me a week n a half ago with something she bought for me and it was a freakin stereo unit! 3 CD changer, tape deck, all that, and it has a separate speaker that is ALL bass!!! Anyone who knows me, knows I loooove me sum baaaassssss BOOOOMMMMMM!! lmao. Ahem.. anyway, so yea, I got that, uh, some clothes I think, haha…my laptop of course, and then yesterday the 6th, me and mommy went to the movies to see this movie that was playing one night only. She preordered the tickets a while ago. So that was kinda a late bday present. It was nice to have some movie theater popcorn! I have to admit I fell asleep at one point tho! lmao. No judgment on the movie, I am on high dose pain killers. haha! Anyway, it was called To Joey With Love. It’s about the country singer who died not too long ago, Joey somethin, about her havin cancer n shit. I admit I didn’t pay too close attention to it, I came into it knowing the story n all that. I was just there to enjoy being at the movies and to keep mommy company so she didn’t have to go alone. It was nice. I felt bad because Laura has been wanting to go see a movie soon. Maybe we can do that when my Mom gets her Xanax refilled. If we still have enough money. That would be a great surprise for her. :) Hmm… I wonder if we have an anniversary coming up? Damn, not until February. Oh well, it doesn’t have to be an anniversary. :)

OK, I am gonna go catch up on you peeps. Let’s see if there is anything I missed… Bday, surgery, movie, I don’t think so. K, see yall later, much loooove!! <3

Steph