Sunday Morning in New Diary

I did something really stupid last night. I boiled some water in a pan for hot cereal. I forgot to turn off the burner. Jesus I could have set off the fire alarm. I did this around 10 and if you set off the fire alarm after 10pm you have to pay a $50 fine. If you do this too often they take away your stove and you lose your cooking privileges. I can’t believe I can be so stupid and careless as to forget to turn off a burner Jesus.

In this building we have a cart room. They have grocery carts from Krogers. We can use these carts to haul groceries .We are supposed to return the carts to the cart room. But people abuse this privilege. Some people keep carts in their apartments. One women had two grocery carts in her apt. Some people leave them out in the parking lot or by the dumpster. Landlord always warned us that he would have Krogers come and take the cart if people don’t follow the rules. Well they are gone. There is not a cart in the building. Chocolatechip was saying that some man was standing in the breezeway He was telling her that Krogers came for the carts and there is supposed to be a sign up saying no carts

This is just great. It has always been a very bit pet peeve of mine that people are two lazy and inconsiderate to return the carts. Landlord has always warned us about it and now he finally got rid of them. I live on 8th floor. I am wondering how I am going to get my groceries up here. Pisses me off. A few people have ruined a good thing for everyone else.

I slept in today. I woke up around 7:30 this morning. I felt pretty good. I haven’t had any bad depressive episodes since last Thursday. I have been keeping my mind focused on the positive and not dwelling on my past. Anxiety has been high. I’ve been worried about that problem I’m having with Medicare and why my bills are not getting paid. Also worried about getting my new glasses which are supposed to come in the mail. It has been over a week and I still haven’t gotten them. Also recertification is up. I’m having my interview on the 27th Been worried about that as well even though I never had any problems with that . I still worry.

But I try not to dwell on these things too much., Worrying will not solve anything. It will only make me sick. Case manager and I are going over to Steubenville to the Social Security Office tomorrow. We are hoping to get the issue resolved. We are also going to the welfare office. I will have to get a print out of my EBT benefits the whole $16 worth of bennies. Then I will have everything I need for recertification. I tell myself there will be no need to worry but I will still worry

Well this is 9/11. This marks the fifteenth year of the terror attack I will never forget those days. I will never forget all those people dying . I kept watching the news about it. The more I watched the news stories the angrier I got. I wanted to go after the people responsible. I wanted to see Bush bomb the hell out of some mid east country. I supported Bush when he invaded Afghanistein and Syria. I bought into what the government was saying that Sadaam had stockpiles of WMDs and was about ready to launch another attack or sell them to terrorist organizations. I was a die hard Republican then. I could not have been more wrong but that is another story.,

Anyway I got very sick over the attacks. I kept watching videos on my computer about the World Trade Center going down. I got kind of paranoid. I thought Weirton would be experiencing a next Terror attack.. It got so bad I was afraid to leave my apartment. I started to obsess over the attacks and I ended up on the 9th floor of WMC.

It is time for my daily affirmations. 1 I have a roof over my head so I am not homeless. 2 I have food to eat so I am not starving. 3 I have insurance that pays for most of my meds. 4 I have clothes to wear. 5 I have plenty of books to read. 6 I am in fairly good physical health. 7 I have an SSI check and Social Security check. 8 I am not holed on alcohol or drugs. 9 I have phone, Internet cable tv even Wi-Fi 10 Most important I have a wonderful fiancé in Chocolatechip. 11 I have a wonderful support system in Healthways. I m truly blessed.

life is pretty good

Last updated September 11, 2016