valerie not coming thing. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.

ok so on Mon. at 4:20 i’m sitting by the dining room. [well our dining room is part of.i guess back in the old days people would call it a parlor. in my house you open the front door an to your left is the parlor.thing and then the dining room. it doesn’t have any cabinets. er for dishes i men though thereis a tall display cabinet. and then a long tble and chair. anyway] yes so i was sitting by it and.valerie hadn’t come. so I go upstairs to check my email to see if she’d emailed me as again i don’t have the internet activated on my phone and my computer when i’m at my house it stays upstairs so. and she had. She had a dr.’s appt. and i don’t know if she’d made it that day or if it was a last minute type of thing. i’ll ask. i don’t open her emails [or anyone else’s it’s not specific to her] so i only get part of them. so i don’t know if she explained more or not. if it’s a last minute thing............then we really don’t have a problem. [also that might’ve been the only time the dr. had for an appt. i have no idea]. so i textmailed her and said i got her email and i’d reschedule when.i could.
The thing is. well if it wasn’t a last minute thing i would’ve wanted to know ahead of time so I could plan my day better. like ‘oh ok so she won’t be here Mon. alrite cool. i’m going to........’ and then have something else to do that day [which i did and it all worked out but that’s not really the point]. although she’s better about letting me know than evan was. far as i know she doesn’t know about him. I also don’t know.if the appt. was for her specifically or if it was for her daughters. I seem to recall it was something like ‘i have an appt.’. i don’t need to know the details unless she wants to tell me.
and the other thing is. um so I’m bringing some stuff over to my mom’s from my house. well really 2 computer cases a couple shoeboxes that were under my bed. and before i got the email it’s like ‘oh ok so valerie & i’ll go together’. to my mom’s. i told her i had a suitcase to get from my mom’s. but knowing now that she had the appt. i would’ve felt bad if i’d told her about the other stuff. like ‘oh well fuk you have this other thing.......and here i was all ready to go’. i mean i can take that stuff on the bus it’s just.like usually I won’t ask for help. which means.I won’t ask for help w/ my stuff. and w/ valerie it’s like ‘no we’ll put it in the back of your car and take it to my mom’s’. But the other side of that is.she’s reallly nice and she’ll like.actually talk to people. i mean i guess since she’s working for my mom they........should talk whenever they see each other. but i’m just not a big talker. I kindof wish she was like me in that way. like it’s ok we don’t need to talk. i don’t see a reason we all can’t be here quietly and not talk. and had we gone asking valerie to wait in her car would’ve been weird esp. as she’s the one who brought me to my mom’s so.
My sister’s better w/ like wait staff than i am.well i’m nice to them but whenever people ask i never say i’m good. it’s always ‘i’m ok’. or if we’re in a store I don’t want them to talk to me so right away I get annoyed. [oh yeah i have news on this. the stupid lady at bath bodyworks thing........story.........thing]. so it’s ‘fine’ now leave me alone. [yes i know i’ve mentioned this before]. but yeah. that’s a problem if valerie & I’d gone to my mom’s Mon. i’d have. i’d have...........oh had a problem w/ that. [i don’t want her to be mean. i just don’t want her to be that nice. that again really is my biggest problem w/ her w/ valerie. which seems like a bit of an unusal thing not to like about someone but ok].
oh so right.And the reason.I’m bringing that stuff to my mom’s is.room checks.er i have room checks at my house and based on what happened..........er recently w/ the scissors thing I don’t trust the lady to not look in the stuff that’s under my bed. not like there’s anything incriminating in it. but that’s not the point. the point again is she should’ve told me. and she didn’t and that changed things and now here we are. [oh i have news on this btw.er well more news]. i mean if I evidently couldn’t trust her then...... [i’m aware that’s redundant]. see i won’t actually tell most people if they’ve done something i don’t like. no i’ll communicate it by changing stuff.
yeah so the bus and my stuff. I’ve been getting better at taking my time when i get out of the car/on/off the bus. or you know the driver might not even offer to help. which is cool. ya just don’t know.

but um yeah. so that was mon. i’ll have more on mon. in.........er coming up.