I Need A Fix 'Cause I'm Going Down... in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown

Over the last month…ish…whatever, I’ve been working a butt load of overtime. No social life thanks to working afternoons into late nights. However during one drunken night off I rediscovered my love of cocaine.

I was strung out on the shit for two weeks straight. I am happy to report I’m off of it now. But there went all that sweet sweet money. I dropped a few hundred(s) and I’m not proud to say that at all. However this isn’t the first time I’ve been stupid like this and took the liberty of telling my guy to cut me off so I can get my head straight again.

A normal night of sleep has become a thing of the past, and that is without the drugs. I get home roughly around two AM and from there it’s a question as to when I get to sleep. I’ll get into bed between three and four but won’t fall asleep usually till the sun is coming up. Sleep till noon or one and up long enough to eat, toss on some clothes, and back to work.

My therapist quit around before December because the facility she works at sucks…no, I don’t know where she went off to. Tomorrow I’m finally going to get off my ass and call them to make an appointment with the lady who took over her case load. I do believe with everything that has been building up inside me since my alcohol (and now drug) relapse I’ve got more than a few things to say.

Anyways, just wanted to post to say I’m still alive.