Let Me Write Something in meh...

So I’m what? A month or so in and I’m about to make my 1st $20 from relentlessly doing surveys.

I’ve filled my own personal Facebook, Twitter, games quota so now I’m here, getting this quota in.

One thing I’ve been thinking about was this guy who works for the courier service my job uses. A while ago, he asked me to give him a call. He’s “new” to the area. “Do you go out?” Give me a call sometime. I took his number and forgot where I put it.

That’s a damn lie.

I put it in my drawer and contemplated calling him and then didn’t. I started writing other stuff on the paper and eventually put it in recycling.

So recently he came here to pick up and drop off stuff two days in a row. The last time I saw him, he said, “I’m still waiting on that phone call…” I just was like damn, I’m sorry. I am so sorry. I think I was waiting, and not just with him, but if I started dating anyone, I was waiting to have a car so we can meet up, meet half way. I don’t always want people to know where I am right off the bat. I mean when we talk, Yeah I live over in this area, because that’s what we do in St. Louis. Neighborhoods.

Anyway, I’d been thinking about what my hesitation was about him and it was completely shallow. There are some guys out here who are not so good looking, but they intrigue me. I worry about compatibility because I’m not stuck with the whole because I’m a black woman I don’t do anything outside of my culture. I eat sushi and goat meat and will go to an extremely ethic restaurant and try what they have. I’ve had Peruvian food. I need you to get like me. lol I love all kinds of music. I’m not stuck on R&B because that’s what I’m supposed to like. Today’s “R&B” sucks to me. I will get behind the stuff I loved from when I was growing up through my 20’s. I will go to the old head spots and laugh at the old men out here still trying to catch.

Also he seems like, if I give him a chance he will pressure me. I don’t have to have chemistry with someone when we first meet and talk, but I’d like to be able to click with some people and know that the conversation is not going to be one sided. One asking all the questions and the other person having nothing. I don’t do small talk so it’s rare when I meet someone and we just click and we talk. It’s awesome. lol I don’t get this vibe from him and I don’t want to do something that I’m not sure of.

And no, no one said we had to get married. It’s only a conversation on the phone. A phone that I don’t have. A phone that isn’t even on. ::smh:: I can’t even get my life together. What the hell do I need a relationship for? He probably goes to church and wears suits he looks funny in because he’s round in the middle and likes to button his jacket up. That was rude. I’m sorry. ::giggles profusely::

He looks like a sweaty church letch. LOL Then he also didn’t pass the “what might we look like when we are having sex” text. Nothing about that was nice. I can’t. even. LOL

Okay, okay, okay…

If I see him again, I will tell him what my deal is as far as I have no phone and nothing to offer. I’m not the table, I’ve got nothing to bring to the table. Walk away now before life cruel jokes us.

I am a veritable nut.

Have a great day one and all…

Kindest regards,
Sister