I'm Feeling... in meh...

I’m feeling a bunch of stuff right now. I know I told my daughter she wouldn’t have to slave for me while she was here, but one would think that if she shows up with nothing but her child and a bunch of shit, if i asked her to cook once sincw she’s been here it would be nice if she complied.

She took the kid to the back to school fair yesterday and then spent the remainder of the time “at the library.” I put it in quotes because i can’t rightfully say that’s where she was. The library closes at 6. She waltzed in here closer to 6:30 or after. Library isn’t that far away. 10 mins tops.

She yells out she’s bored and has no friends. I invite her to karaoke which last night was great. Jodeci Osborne and his crew was there. I’ll explain about him later. Lol

She never showed. Baby was with his grandfather for the day. Well. He didn’t pick him up until 3.

I at least had the afternoon to myself. I let my son use my key because daughter had his and she was gone so I couldn’t get into the basement to wash clothes. So I was once again on my butt watching TV. Save for when I went to the kitchen to wash dishes.

So yeah. This arrangement. When i came home at 1:30, close to 2, she and baby were sleep. It is now 3:16 and she has been awake for 17 minutes. Once again, I’m the kid entertainment and meal service. She acts like she is starving and always hungry but then when it’s time to eat she doesn’t have an appetite. She complained my sister didn’t feed her kids real food and they ate lots of junk, but I don’t cook fried food much or eat a lot of pasta like I use too. My grandbaby is picky. He is just now starting to eat burgers and other meats. Otherwise he will eat me out of peanut butter and jelly and grilled cheese. I asked son since it’s Sunday what should we have for dinner. He said burgers since they don’t eat like we do. Asked daughter if she wanted some fried fish, “You got hot sauce?” I haven’t bought hot sauce in ages or ketchup. I just bought a burger and onion rings at the bar. I got a free drink from DJ and paid for my other one.

I just have been thinking about the past few days and while nothing is wrong, something is off. That scowl I said I was going to try to not have on my face is just under the surface. It’s like I have a pre-attitude and she will come to where I am in the house and stand right behind me. I have told her to get off of me. I think i said it kind of stinky but then followed up by asking what was up.

I know she will need money to get to work. I gave her money to get kid some uniform shirts, now she will use half to get one shirt and the rest for work. I went and bought pants and socks.

So I guess I’m feeling overwhelmed at what hasn’t happened yet. I sincerely hope things work out okay but when it comes to her there is always this looming…SOMETHING.

Well. I think, I’m going to make my way to the grocery store. Or perhaps I will text my friend and see if she pops over here can she take me to the store. Nah. I will go. I need to be alone. Nah. I just need my daughter to get her shit together.