the only thing different the only thing new......... in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

‘ya know.....i was thinking about it. [as if you couldn’t tell from my recent updates]. and i was thinking about what’s changed since a little over 3 yrs. ago. he & i were talking about it recently and he told me ‘my heart was breaking for you that night’. [yes and this is why this is such a difficult decision for me]. and. the difference back then was.i didn’t have time to think about it i just did.i was impulsive and i um well i did something stupid. and the other difference is this time i’m the one who’s deciding. as i’m wont to do. not him. but other than that it’s pretty much the same. it’s like the song says the only thing different the only thing new.’

and by ‘that night’ i mean the night i almost........um left.

‘and the other thing is. he’s not the one who starts stuff i am. he’s never bee the one who’s like ‘ok well that’s it’. er not..........um. what i said about the starting stuff thing. been*. ‘