i don't believe people. and i don't want to. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

ya know..........i was thinkin about this. and to be completely honest. i think the reason i thought [and frankly wanted to] believe that evan wanted me to be sick.was cause i wanted to believe he wanted me to get sickso he would take care of me.like just for that reason. yeah when we were talking about it i told him ‘i haven’t been that sick in a long time’. and i haven’t been.
but then. what the hell kindof person would he be if he was actually like that?well not a v. good one that’s for damn sure. but the thing is.i don’t believe people are as good as they say they are bc. they haven’t been. and yeah that’s sad. it is really sad that the world screwed me over this much. and yes while i know i’m choosing to feel this way to be this way.it didn’t happen w/o contribution from the outside world.