Nothing - 28.12.13 in Your Face

I've heard nothing from my Heslop. The funeral will be on new year's eve.

I have also heard nothing from my husband aside from a "merry christmas". No more, no less.

I just feel awful.

I can feel myself sinking, and I'm making a half-hearted attempt to avoid it. I have to paint more of the house with my mother tomorrow, she needs a ton of other stuff done that I will put my hand up for. I am going out tonight for a couple of hours to see my aunt's band play.

I don't know. Every day that I am still here, I am reminded of how M has let me down. I'm not in a position to act on it until I know why he is taking so long and even then ...

I don't know. Fuck this.