Depressed. Lonely. in Since OD is shutting down....

It’s been a good day off. I didn’t do much other than get food and go to the bank to put money in. I took a 3 hour nap and plan to go to bed soon. I had put my roommate on my insurance so that it was cheaper for him but since he has 30 days to leave, I worry that he won’t pay his share. I text him to ask but he never answered so I’m going to give it a couple of days and see what his plan is because I’m not going to be stuck paying his too. It’s bad enough I get to pay all the rent by myself on top of buying groceries, trash bags, and toilet paper. I’m not going to be stuck paying his car insurance too.

I haven’t heard from anyone at all today and it’s been nice but also super depressing. I honestly hate days off. I have little to no social interaction whatsoever so it makes me super glad when my day off is over. I still haven’t figured out why it’s like this but I try to just enjoy my own company and think maybe the best days of my life haven’t even happened yet.

Sometimes I truly blame myself for everything. I think that people don’t really care about me because I make it easy for them. I don’t believe anyone cares about me.

Anyways, I don’t know when I’ll see my roommate again but I plan to get my stuff from his storage when I make my next car payment and try to figure out what we are doing with the car insurance.

I’m gonna watch tv and go to bed.