Some people's kids. in Since OD is shutting down....

I had a pretty good night at work. Last night was pretty good too. Come to find out, that guy had an interview with my boss (after telling me he didn’t want to work anywhere I worked) and I guess told her that we slept together. From the text I saw to my manager, he did nothing but drag my name through the mud so my boss had her assistant (that girl that doesn’t like me) call him and said they didn’t have any open positions. I read where it was said “he was a load of drama” so I’m just really relieved that I won’t have to worry about this guy!!

It truly irritates me that this person would be so disrespectful and inappropriate to tell MY boss MY PERSONAL LIFE!!! It’s truly humiliating. I am very upset by this but on the same note, extremely glad that he did because he sunk his own ship. My bosses all completely anti-drama and gossip so it’s nice to know that me texting her about him and the way he behaved at his interview, she decided not to hire him. I’m glad that me being there for 2 and a half years has paid off enough that they at least somewhat listen to me about new hires.

When he text me Monday night saying he had an interview lined up, I text her immediately but NEVER did I say we had hooked up!! I said that I had met him and didn’t like his energy. I also mentioned that he’s a bully and runs people out of their job (my roommate told me this) and I was just so scared that even if he would have worked at our other location, that he STILL would have managed to run his mouth about me and of course, there’s people there that know me well enough that it would have gotten back to me.

My biggest fear is someone running me out of my job, especially because I have fought so fucking hard to be where I’m at. I will do EVERYTHING I have to to keep my damn job. I’m happy there and I’m not going to let anyone ruin that for me. It’s just so crazy how stupid fucking shit can turn into crap like this. Only here. This place is NOTHING BUT DRAMA AND GOSSIP!! It just gets old so fucking fast.

I admit, I used to LOVE drama and gossip. Honestly, I could sit and talk shit about people for HOURS!!! Now, after everything I’ve been through, I’ve realized that life is just way too fucking short and I have more love in my heart than hate. I just have better things to worry about and talk with people about than everyone else. I know I have my moments where I will engage in some drama but I try to be SOOOOOO careful what I say about anyone because I feel that if you wouldn’t say it to their face, you shouldn’t say it behind their back either.

I am so glad that things actually went in my favor, as they rarely every do. I told my friend from work that I already have one headache (DAN) I certainly don’t need another. I honestly believe the main reason Dan and I are able to work together is because we never had a sexual relationship. I am glad that the drama with him and I is at the absolute bare minimum. I like that we don’t talk to each other and it’s comfortable. I don’t have a lot of anxiety about having to work with him anymore, even though I am glad I only have to see him twice a week. I work with him tomorrow and Saturday.

Things with my roommate have been a bit rocky. I was pissed the other night because he’s done so much cleaning and organizing that I can’t ever find anything, such as oven mitts. I also got pissed that he didn’t put a new roll of toilet paper in the bathroom. My friend at work thinks he’s just using me for a place to live because he’s seriously never around. Him and I hung out today and he says I need to learn not to sweat the small stuff. I think I do because it really hurts me that he’s never around.

I truly do love him and want more than anything for this to work but sometimes I am scared that one day he’s just going to dip out. I know that we probably won’t live together forever, but I’m afraid I’ll come home from work one day and he’s not going to be here. I’ve gotten so used to him behind around that I can’t imagine living alone again. It’s still hard adjusting to someone else being here for different reasons because I lived alone for so long but now, I wouldn’t have it any other way.

My frustrations stem from feeling like I care more for other people than they do for me. I know my roommate does like me but I wish he showed it more. He did buy us Olive Garden for lunch so when I got off work, I took him a milkshake. I just love him and sometimes when I’m pissed at him, I cry because I do love him and don’t want him to leave. I guess he’s going to start closing 5 nights a week so I’m hoping we’ll at least see each other more during the day. It just kills me when he spends more time with other people than with me because back when, we used to hang out and do stuff together all the time. I want that back.

I requested the 23rd off to go back down and see the Grandparents. My Grampa is having a rummage sale that day and I wanna be there for that. I know I’ll probably get it off but I’m hoping my brother comes too. He just doesn’t want to spend the night and I kinda do so I’m not sure but he can take his own car because he just pissed me off by not chipping in for gas last time. If I stay the night, I’ll pry stay at my Grandma’s.

Anyways, I’m going to lay down and get ready for bed.