Feeling tired. in Since OD is shutting down....

I now have 2 days off a week due to almost losing my housing and just not being able to do 6 days a week anymore. I was off Monday and it was nice. I didn’t get as much sleep and relaxation as I wanted but it’s nice to know I don’t have to work as much. I’m only scheduled 32 hours this week but I stayed 2 hours late last night so I’m sure I’ll get close to 40 by Sunday. I still can’t access my online paystubs and it’s driving me crazy.

I finally met up with that guy for lunch on Monday. He’s very nice, easy to talk to, and funny but I don’t have a physical attraction to him at all. He looked at my car and said that it won’t take much to make it normal again and listened to it run, saying it sounds great. I must buy an oil pan and start from there.

My taxes are filed but they haven’t been approved or sent yet. I should be getting my bonus with my check on Friday. I just want to get my car going and pay down on a credit card. I have a couple of other small bills that I’d like to pay too.

Work has been going good. I feel a lot better about things now that I’m off 2 days a week. My stress level has decreased and feel a lot calmer about it. It’s just crazy how working all the time gets so stressful. I work tonight and tomorrow and I’m off friday. I think after this Sunday and Valentine’s day, I’m going to ask to be strictly evenings. I don’t want any more day shifts. I’m ok with it being once a week for now but I don’t like being there all day long anymore.

Dan and I just don’t talk. He’s off Monday and Tuesday but he’ll be there tonight. I just never know how to be towards him because he talks shit about me even when I’m nice so I just go out of my way to avoid having any communication with him at all. I admit that I still have feelings for him but it’s better for both of us to just leave it alone because even if we dated again, I’d have to worry about the same shit as before.