More baby things in Musings

It seems like right after I write or say that Leah is in a good phase she does a 180 on me. I wrote that last entry and now she’s throwing a lot more fits and fighting me on things. Like getting her diaper changed. Getting dressed. Getting her hair brushed. I know in my head that it’s completely normal for her age and she’s just trying to assert her independence, but I still get so frustrated sometimes. Especially being pregnant. I get winded so darn easily. And I just don’t feel like holding her down or carrying her kicking and flailing around. I know it’s just going to get worse as I get bigger.

I’m DYING to know the sex of this kiddo. My clinic now makes us wait til 22 weeks to do the anatomy scan. They were having to redo too many when the scans were at 19/20 weeks. Because with those they want to see every tiny little body part. So mine is scheduled for March 23rd. I’m trying to talk Nathan into going into an elective place here in town that focuses on finding out the sex. They can do it as early as 16 weeks which would be Friday for me. Does anyone have experience with those places? I’ve heard mix reviews.

Another thing is that we can bring Leah to the elective one. But our hospital doesn’t let us take children to the imaging center where they do the ultrasounds. I think she’d like coming. She has been talking more and more about the baby and I think it would help her feel connected.

The new midwife I saw last appointment was awesome! She is new to the clinic and young and really sweet. I asked her questions that I had concerns about after my terrible previous appointment. She basically confirmed what they had originally told me after I gave birth to Leah: I am at a little bit of a higher risk for those things happening again. But they aren’t guaranteed. It made me feel better.

I’m a little concerned that the midwife who delivered Leah no longer works there. I overheard them saying someone retired so that’s why they hired the new lady. I’m going to be so sad if she did. I was really looking forward to seeing her again. I hope it was the terrible midwife who retired lol.

I CAN request who I want to see but I am particular about the days I can come (when someone can watch Leah) so I haven’t rocked the boat on that.

I can’t wait til this baby starts really kicking. He/She was moving like crazy at my last appointment because they were having to chase him/her with the Doppler to get a clear heartbeat. But I’ve yet to feel much. I know it’s coming soon. It just makes me feel so much more connected to the baby. And I know it helps Nathan too. I don’t think this feels real to him yet. He is concerned I think that he won’t have room in his heart for another kid since he loves Leah SO much. But I know he will. It’ll be an adjustment for all of us but I do already love this baby.

This was the most boring entry in the history of entries so I’m going to stop writing now. Haha