well since i can't sleep i might as well blog. dogs people ladies. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.

it’s currently 5 a.m. here. well i mean i ‘could’ sleep if i really wanted to which evidently i don’t right now. um. ptsd and insomnia and relapses. yeah relapses suck. i’m uncomfortable a lot like physically next Wed. can’t come soon enough that’s when i get my ebt money.omygod. and i’m going grocery shopping.
anyway.
So last wk..........on the day I was at Whole Foods. oh there I got a peppermint chocolate cookie and chocolate milk. The cookie smelled better than it tasted also i don’t like their cookies they’re.hard and I don’t like hard cookies. But I was saving money so. and cookies go w/ milk. and I like chocolate milk it makes me feel like i’m 10 and in a good way. as do chicken nuggets er I haven’t had those in forever. everyone thinks i’m a ‘vegetarian’ which i’m actually not. I just don’t eat a lot.in front of people. well i guess even if i were actually a vegetarian i still.wouldn’t want to eat a lot in front of people so..........well no i wouldn’t want them making exceptions for me. so that’s why everyone thinks that. I don’t like the misconception that vegetarians only eat vegetables. or they really like them or something although some might. I personally don’t. although i really like brocolli. and corn which btw isn’t a vegetable it’s a grain.
um..........so anyway yeah whole foods. and some people confused vegetarians w/ vegans my uncle’s one of them.
And then before I went in I saw a scottie you know like the dog. And now i’ll only pet dogs if their people aren’t there usually. But this little guy there was something about him. so I pet him. he was so well behaved. and quiet and mellow nice dog. they’re silly they’re funny when they walk. you don’t see them much these days well i don’t i’ve only seen like 3. that’s why i like pigeons cause they’re funny when they walk. anyway. curtis the dog. His lady told me ‘I have to tell you this is the first time he’s reacted to someone’. um thanks? i guess? and then I went about my day.
oh so while I was waiting to purchase my items there a lady was paying for hers but I didn’t realise it straightaway. but then stepped back when i did. So she was talking to the cashier Chelsey and she noticed me and she’s like ‘oh i’m sorry’. i’m like ‘it’s ok’. she looked like jessica lange who I like.
ok so the wk. before last I went to Whole Foods. and the lady in front of me was like ‘do you want to go ahead? i don’t know what i want so you should go ahead’. um ok wow thank you. oh and when I was at the um mall a guy asked me about the food court. he seemed like a nice guy. i helped him. maybe i was just super approachable that day or something i don’t know. he reminded/s me of the guy who works at the liquor store i go to by king’s. he’s just a really nice guy. and apparently he’s married. I don’t know him like other from there but yeah nice guy.
So...........last wk. like I mentioned I ran into the mom of a former classmate of mine. she’s still a nice lady. So her son the one who was my classmate is apparently engaged. when I heard that I went ‘oh well he was always nice’. and he was and i’ll always remember that not many were back in those days oh ‘those days’ being when i was in elementary school. So his fiancee is evidently ‘really sweet’ so they like her. oh ‘they’ being the mom and her husband. From her picture she [being the fiancee] looks um cute. like she’s not un,attractive exactly. but i also think attraction is so much more than physical. um that was really all we talked about. it’s not often I run into people I know.
one of the days i didn’t see evan and i blogged about this i saw this beautiful irish setter. at whole foods at least i think that’s where it was. i think i said hi to him. the dog i mean although if evan had been there then yeah i would’ve also said hi to him as well. but maybe..........ya know if he had been there i wouldn’t’ve seen the dog i don’t know.
ok well i should probably go to sleep at some point.

Last updated June 04, 2016