Emotion: Grum in BookThree: Flight Log 2016

I know it is wrong, I know it is inappropriate but sometimes with my wife I can’t help thinking.... “That ADHD bitch!”

My absolute favorite anime of ALL TIME is “Steins Gate.” I am super obsessed with Time Travel and have been since I was little. Over X-Mas, Wife gave me Stein’s Gate....and I told her (with excitement) that she needed to watch this with me!

So today… she had the entire day off! She spent MOST of it watching Buzzfeed videos. When I say most of it? I mean… from 10 am until 3 pm! So, when she finally stopped… I tried to figure out what she wanted to do. Nothing. No input. So I put on Steins; Gate. She started watching YouTube Maru videos DURING the second episode. Not because she was bored… but because she was “distracted.” So fine… fuck it.
I go into the Bedroom to watch my own YouTube videos. Wife follows me. Turns UP the volume on her cell phone Maru cat videos as I try to watch my own shit.

WTF, woman?! You watch Buzzfeed videos all day. Then, I try to share something important… something you bought me… with you… and you ignore it… act like a freaking toddler… and do something else. Then when I say “Fine, fuck it. Do what you want.” You follow me and try to ruin what I’m trying to do?

WAY TO BE A SELFISH, SELF-INVOLVED BITCH.

I mean… even in my massive depression, I try to consider other people and their needs/wants. My wife can’t even consider her own husband in her day to day activity! IF there is some great cosmic plan… maybe that is what is going on. God, The Universe, The Powers That Be don’t want me to be financially independent and have a job because then I’d be more inclined to get a divorce.