Expect the unexpected. in Since OD is shutting down....

OMG. So as tired as I was last night, I couldn’t sleep for shit. I took my Melatonin and just struggled to pass out. I finally get to sleep but I know I wasn’t sleeping good at all. Well, I notice my phone ringing so I roll over and pick it up, it’s Dan! Well I don’t answer cuz I’m still out of it and then I just laid in my bed for about 10 minutes wondering if it was real. My heart was pounding so I check my phone and it really was him. Well I just laid here and about 10 minutes later, he called back!! We ended up talking for about 2 hours!!! We just talked about work mostly, he did say he was nervous about coming back because he was afraid of how I was going to be and I said the same about him!! He said he missed talking to me which made me feel so good!!

He doesn’t really know anyone except me there and said it’s nice to just talk to me again. He said he missed talking to me and I know I missed talking to him too! He’s really happy about making better money and not having to work with the GM of our other location. She will be there today but it’s just because one of our other managers is gone opening our new store in another city. I’m glad to know that he missed me enough to call and I’m hoping we can at least be friends.

I know I don’t have any expectations whatsoever and whatever happens, happens. I know there’s no one else I’d rather date and he’s someone that has proven he’d be there for me, even if we aren’t dating. I just want us to get to know each other again and see how it plays out. If we end up dating again, I would be super happy but if we don’t, then I’m just gonna chalk it up as we are better off as friends. He told me what happened with our other location and he ended up telling our boss about his health issues. I guess he lost his peripheral vision due to a benign tumor pushing on his corneas! Super scary shit!! He said he’s fine and he just has to take medication twice a week and it’s shrinking the tumor! I’m honestly glad that he’s okay!

I just love his excitement about work now. He just loves how busy it is and that he’s making real money now. I love hearing him talk so passionately about our job and we can talk about work now without him getting pissed at me! I even said that last night about how he used to get so pissed about me talking about work and he said that we were dating and it’s in the past. Well, I suppose. I’m glad that everyone likes him but someone I don’t like was mean to him last night but I guess apologized so it’s okay but I told him if anyone is mean to him, I’m going to freak out. Dan is a very nice guy and no one deserves to treat him like shit. He’s someone that would seriously give you the shirt off his back! I asked him last night if he would come pull me out and he said, “SURE” and it just made me smile!

I have to work here soon and I’m tired. I seriously just want to come home and go to bed tonight. I just don’t get how I’m tired all the time but then when I can go to bed, I can’t sleep! It’s super annoying! It’s so early and I’m struggling to feel awake. It’s going to be a long day but I know once I get there, I’ll be fine. Dan works this evening and I’m hoping it’s steady but where we can actually talk. I admit, I miss holding him and feeling his touch. I miss what we had and I would love to feel that again but do it right this time, ya know. \

So I’m gonna lay down for a few. More later.