time for another survey in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

Are the shows you watch embarrassing?
→ I don’t think so. except for like ‘90’s shows. i’m embarassed to admit exactly which ones i like.

Would you ever get plastic surgery?
→ well yes except a I might not like how it turns out and 2 I don’t like being taken care of, so. like when I get sick [and i get sick a lot due to my anorexia. you don’t have to say anything about it] I don’t let anyone know cause I don’t like being taken care of. and i mean sick w/ something small like laryngitis. also i know what to do about it so i don’t need anyone to insult my intelligence by telling me what to do. This is why i don’t go to the dr. like if i have a cold i don’t need the dr. to tell me what to do about it just write the damn prescription. although if I were on meds which i’m not and i had side effects I probably wouldn’t let people know cause, as said. this is more in terms of physical than emotional though. actually this is one of the reasons i’m not on meds.

Do you take Cosmo sex tips seriously?
→ it’s interesting: i buy magazines but I don’t actually read them. and that’s the reason i buy cosmo is for the sex tips. but i read the sex tips online. anyway. not often.

Would you ever date a Mexican?
→ a Mexican yes. and an Asian. and an Indian. like from India. [well otherwise i’d put ‘native american’. oh i’d date that race too]. and a white person.

Are you a Diet Coke addict?
→ great now i feel like i ‘have’ to say yes

How do you take your whiskey?
→ straight

Do you chew on your ice cubes?
→ no. it’s bad for your teeth. i also don’t crave them which is good. [people w/ anemia which i have often do]. like i like salt.a lot but i don’t crave that either [another thing some people w/ anemia crave]

Do you honestly consider yourself attractive?
→ um yeah. but i don’t believe i am.

You’re having twins, so what’s your first reaction?
→

What do you associate with the number ten?
→ Little Monkeys.

Have you ever felt like a stalker?
→ yeah

Do you have a smoker’s cough?
→ no. also i don’t smoke a whole lot, so. i’m guessing you mean cigs.

Is your hair naturally curly?
→ no

Have you ever written a word down, then realized it looked really weird?
→ no but i’ll think a word is mispelt. like ‘cheeseman’ as in ‘cheeseman park’. yeah that’s not how it’s spelt. it’s ‘cheesman’. but that’s not how you spell cheese so...........i’ve been wanting cheese lately. and i’m not a big cheese person. anyway. oh wait maybe it’s someone’s last name yeah that’s prolly it. valerie [again she’s my mentor] has this habit of mispronouncing words. She’s not un,intelligent exactly she’s just.not as intelligent as i am. like the other day she didn’t know how the word ‘dubliner’ was said. like um really? wow. I don’t think it’s specific to her but she’s the only one I know of who currently does this, so. She also mispronounces ‘vineyard’ but that’s on purpose. Don’t bother explaining her side of things to me cause that would only annoy me further, so. oh and she’s said ‘more happier’. um no that’s incorrect. I know that one isn’t specific to her. i’m the most easygoing person ever except when it comes to grammar.

Do you have a best friend named Sam?
→ great now i feel like i have to say yes

How often do you skip class?
→ i don’t. er i mean i’m not in school. although the wk. of senior ditch day like i went to school but not not to class on the wrong day. well in college i did i skipped class. which explains why i didn’t graduate but i also wasn’t going there for that purpose, so.

Do you text smiley faces a lot?
→ again now i feel like i have to say yes

Do you even like texting?
→ well you don’t have to say it like that

Have you ever been on anti-depressants?
no. and i already explained the meds thing.

How’s your week been?
→ well it’s Sun. so......nothing’s happened yet.

Do you like dates?
→ oh the actual event not the fruit. although i don’t like the fruit.

Have you ever starved yourself?
→ you’re funny

Do you got swag?
→ No.

Do you like the old 90210 or the new one better?
→ the new one. i’ve not seen the other one.

How do your nails look right now?
→ um they’re fine. not painted. i don’t paint them cause i’m massively self conscious and i don’t want anyone to say anything. i don’t like long nails. when i see them on ladies i always get the urge to peel them off as that’s what i do w/ mine. yeah i don’t like fingernail clippers i don’t like the sound they make or the feeling. also i’m not allowed to have them so it’s just as well.

Have you ever been in detention?
→ yeah

Are you rude to police officers and do you know any of them by name?
→ well i don’t talk to them so..........i also don’t drive

Do you wear black to look skinnier?
→ no not for that reason

What was or is high school like for you?
→ um. it was ok.

Do you look good naked?
→ yeah i think so. i have a great rack for one. well in my opinion. they’re small.

What should you be doing right now?
→ sleeping probably cause i don’t want people to know i’m awake at this hr.

Have you ever been in rehab?
→ No cause i wouldn’t want people knowing. i’m a v. private person.

Do you have any true friends?
→ yeah

When’s the last time you had a really amazing kiss?
→ um..........

Have you ever drank cough syrup to get high?
→ um......................

Are you failing school?
→ well i’m not currently in school, so

Do you feel like a failure?
→ at times yeah

Do you like the band Say Anything?
→ well i haven’t heard their music, so

Do you want a significant other and will you ever admit that?
→ yeah and i have one

What prescriptions do you have?
→ um i don’t

Have you ever been told you look like a chipmunk?
→ No.

What does your record look like?
→ oh that kind i thought you meant like vinyl. and i don’t........know.

Do you own any cool socks?
→ I have a couple theme socks.

Have you ever been so obsessed with a book that you read it while walking?
→ That’s not called being obsessed with a book, that’s called multi-tasking.

Do you look good in yellow?
→ i..............maybe

Did your first love love you back?
→ i don’t know

What’s the stupidest name you’ve ever given a pet?
→ i’ve never named a pet, so

Do you have a dumb stoner laugh?
→ I’m not a dumb stoner, so no.

Do you have nice legs?
→ yes

Do you have scars on your wrists, or how about anywhere else?
→ Yes, I have scars on my arms and wrists.

Do you wear tube socks?
→ no

Is Matt Damon sexy?
→ and once again i feel like i have to say yes

Are you self-conscious about your shoulders in halter tops?
→ see above answer

Are you a fast typer?
→ wouldn’t it be ‘typist’?

Would you ever live in Beverly Hills?
→ i don’t know i’ve never been there

Are you good at being mean?
→

Have you ever blacked out from being so drunk?
→ yeah

Do you like clubs?
→ like dance clubs or like book club types?

How old were you when you had your first drink?
→ um 19 i think

Would you ever marry someone named Frank?
→ well i don’t know if i’d marry anyone much less a ‘frank’

Do you like fedoras?
→ yeah

Do you drink vodka straight?
→ no as i don’t like to. except for green apple. this reminds me of something evan & i were talking about the other day. he was like ‘you don’t like whiskey’ and i’m like ‘you’re funny’. as at my place there were.a lot of empty vodka bottles. not whiskey bottles. although my last night there he made us dr. and whiskey. well and fireball. and it was damn good.

Have you ever gotten a migraine?
→ no

Have you ever screamed at someone so hard your face turned red?
→ I don’t think so. My face doesn’t usually turn red.

Was your senior prom romantic?
and once again. i feel like i have to say yes.

Do you look presentable right now?
→ see above answer

Have you ever been the wallflower at a party?
→ i don’t go to parties i go to get togethers

Have you ever had your ass grabbed?
→ yes by evan it’s quite fun

Are you still a Chris Brown fan after all his shit?
→ well i wasn’t a fan of his music before that so.............i’m just not a fan of that kindof music in general

Do you post things on Facebook that are personal?
→ yeah and this is why i have 2. The main one my sister’s on it and people i know from online. 2 of my ex’s are. [well w/ one of them she lives up in new york. we had feelings for each other but nothing ever happened]. On that one i don’t talk about my ptsd or my depression or stuff like that. I’ll post current news items i like/d/find interesting. [although my sister knows i have depression]. But w/ the other one that’s the more personal one. my bar friends are on it my friend Mark my friend Susie..........and Lane. [the gay guy i know from boarding school who went on that date to rocky horror awhile back]. and that’s the one where I’ll talk about my ptsd or w/e. If I were to add a mentor to one of my fbs it would be to the main one. for confidentiality purposes. I added Clint but that was before I discovered he’d broken my confidentiality. the way he did it has nothing to do w/ fb. yeah if you break my confidentiality and i know about it i.probably won’t feel better about it for like a yr. my sister did like 3 yrs. ago. well ok she didn’t break it she just didn’t wait long enough. for things to get settled down. ok so i was wrong. but anyway the point being. no actually i think a little over 2 yrs. ago she might have. yeah no confidentiality is really imperitive to me. wow well that was long. anyway.