Onwards - 10.11.13 in Your Face

Finally heard from M today - first I'd heard from him since 17 October. It's upsetting that so much time passed but it also shows how I've thrown myself into my job, I feel like I hardly noticed with the long hours I've been putting in. 10 hours of unpaid overtime this week - I need to ask my boss about getting paid for it, because I didn't have a choice this week.

Anyway. We're past our fight. It remains unresolved, but I'd much rather address it in person than by email.

I am resigned to being here for Christmas, because he is still not working. I can't let myself be too upset about it though, instead we need to find a solution.

I went to Sydney last night to see Salt n Pepa. It was a great time. My sister got up on stage to dance, wearing that jacket I made a few months back. Feeling very tired now.

Not much else to say, I feel flat and tired.

I can't sleep, so here is the list of things I need to get out of my head:

• Cool your temper
• Stop following stupid impulses
• Be more sensitive to those around you; be aware of your surroundings
• It won't kill you to be nice
• Are you proud of your life? If not, then change what you can
• Try not to be so hard on yourself, even when you fuck up
• Send out some good karma, you'll feel better for it