Almost done.... in Life as a Mom of 2 boys.....and a girl!!

I’m at the end of my shift at work and the bizarre thing is that this is my 2nd last shift here before I’m completely done. Almost 10 years and just like that I’m going to leave on Wednesday night and never come here again. Totally bizarre!! It sucks obviously but I’m kind of excited to get to go to sleep at a normal time each night and to wake up fully rested each day. I can use as much of that rest as possible until the baby gets here at which point I KNOW I will have rough nights for a WHILE (my boys didn’t sleep well at night until they were around 10 months at least!)

I feel like the boys have been so bad lately and it’s really frustrating. I hate yelling at them but I get so frustrated that they are quite often misbehaving. I’m going to really try not to yell anymore cuz I just hate it. Sometimes it’s like the only way they will listen. Regardless, I need to try something different. I hate even the idea of being someone who yells at her kids every day. They fight over the most ridiculous things these days like Cody will say “It’s MY TV” and Miles will be like, “MY TV!!” and back and forth they go until Miles will start to cry over it. Pointless, really. And I try to tell Cody not to get his brother upset over something that makes sense but I don’t even know if he gets what I mean when I say that. You have to be so literal with children. Like you can’t say “stop pushing your brothers buttons” or he’ll be like, “what buttons?” Ughh lol.

I’m not sure if I mentioned it but I bought the boys a small kids table to do activities at recently and they love it. I will turn the TV off and pull out a toy that I don’t leave out for them all of the time and they get excited and play together. One day it was legos, another it was coloring books and crayons, another day it was wooden blocks, etc. They will play for a bit and then start fighting over whatever they’re playing with. It sucks. I’m really hoping it’s just a phase. I just need peace sometimes. Last night they were coloring at the table and I was sitting right by them reading a magazine article and when I looked back at them coloring they were both eating all of the crayons. By the time I stopped them they were almost all gone :( Some of the crayons were broken, others they had crumbled and some they had eaten. Wonderful eh? That was fun to brush out of their teeth! And that’s the only crayons I could find at the time so I guess there’s no coloring for a bit until I can find the other set.

When I got to work tonight I found out that apparently there was some kind of clause in our department that said that if the entire department gets laid off at once, we get a bit more pay than the standard 2.4 weeks of pay period year worked. So instead of getting around $11,500, I’m going to be getting just over $13,000. Bonus!! For me that is 6.5 months of pay. Even more if I stretch it out and am careful with it :) I have to call Service Canada tomorrow to figure out how maternity leave pay is going to work. I really hope I can still get the whole year and that I can start it at 32 weeks (3 months away). I know it’s a long time away but I’m already nervous just at the thought of what kind of work I’m going to do after my maternity leave runs out. I don’t want to do something where I barely see my kids, which is why this job was pretty good, despite the 1 hour commute each way and the tiredness sometimes. sigh