Thursday in New Diary

I finished Rogue Lawyer last night. When I read a good book I get really involved with the characters. When I finish with it I get a little sad because it is like loosing a friend. I will not be able to read more ab out their adventure and challenges. In a way it is like loosing a friend. At least this was how I felt when I finished reading Rogue Lawyer by John Grisham. It really was a great book.

I started reading another book last night. This one is Bush at War by Bob Woodward. The author was talking about the September 11 attacks and what the leaders of the country were doing at the time. I couldn’t really get into it because I kept thinking ab out the last book I read.

I watched a lot of news about the latest mass shooting. This time it was in San Bernadino , California. I guess three people were involved. Also fourteen people were killed. Last I heard cops where in a gun battle with one of the suspects. He was killed. and one officer wounded. I think they got one more but I am not so sure about that. All I know is we are living in a crazy and very sick world. Isn’t it any wonder why I don’t like to leave my apartment ?

I am going out today. I am getting my social security check today. Got to go to the bank and Wal Mart. I want to get Chocolatechip her Christmas present. She likes boxed candy so I am going to get her some candy for Christmas. I don’t want to go out today and the thought of it is causing a little bit of anxiety, But I have to go do shopping and pay bills.

9:43am I am back. I can’t get into my new book. I am kind of anxious. My case manager is supposed to take me to the bank and Wal Mart. I haven’t heard from her. I called Healthways twice. I am worried that I wont be able get my ride. I am worried about actually getting out and being around people. The thought of leaving my apartment today does not appeal to me at all But I have to go to the bank get money out to pay the rent and the computer payment which is do today,. Worried that I will not get to the bank and be able to pay my bills.

Life sucks. Hate going out in the world I really do hate it. I know there are people in this building who never leave their apartments. I don’t see them sitting outside checking their mail or taking out their trash. This one man named Tom stays in his apartment almost 24/7 Of course he has some serious health issues Somehow I envy him.

Last updated December 04, 2015