Thanksgiving Eve in 2015

I’m quite down and depressed today knowing that Thanksgiving is tomorrow and we won’t gather as a family like we used to at Mom’s. Then it would be home later and put the tree up so it would fall with the lights on and on Friday it would be decorating. Saturday would and will be spent cooking as on Sunday I have my Thanksgiving here. It’s been a tradition since Bobby and I got married. But with tomorrow empty it won’t be the same. CJ and Shawn and kids will go to her Mom’s not sure what Heather will be doing. I want to go see Mom but not sure how that will play out as she is pissed at me again. Nothing new there huh......

I worked a bit in the kitchen organizing a cabinet had Faith climbing on the counter to do the shelves I can’t reach with things that the others use. She helped a lot. I had intended to sweep and pick up but I got to feeling a bit off and I sat down fed the baby as Shawn had a doctors appointment and CJ rode with Bobby. My blood pressure was up 147/109 not good when they got home I ended up napping and woke with it being 158/110. Not good I know. Too much stress… The surgery they did on Shawn for carpel tunnel didn’t take and he went back to see about it and there is nothing to be done so his hand will let him drop stuff and nothing to correct it.