Going Thru The Motions in 2015

Just seem to be going thru the motions of life and not sure how I manage to get the things done. Yesterday my brother and Betty and I went to the funeral home to give some pictures for a dvd slideshow and then to a local florist to order some flowers. It was very heartbreaking to go through those pics and put them on a thumb drive to take with me.. I told my great niece upon her leaving here on Sunday that she needed to get them to me by Sunday night anymore pics they wanted. My oldest sister is in rehab after having her knee surgery she was having some issues so she had to go there for therapy. So of a natural they wait until we have taken them to call and say oh I have this. But I have this is to late as they had to be there this morning. Betty ordered flowers for us three girls and Johnnie did his own. Betty knew Joyce had limited income and me no income. We ordered the Cross of Hope. Doing these things are taking there tole on me. Tomorrow is the first day of viewing and visitation. I am not looking forward to it but also know that I will stay til the last visitor leaves. Then Thursday another day of visitation and again I plan to arrive early and spend time with Mom before the visitors begin. I know some of you would say don’t stay to long but I have to for me. Friday we lay our Beloved Mom to rest and I don’t know how I will manage to do this day and know without the strength that my Mom instilled in me and the strength from God I wouldn’t be able to do this. I’m at such a loss right now