Barely Hangin in 2015

Hope’s Baptism was today. I didn’t care for the church not what I’m used to but for my grandchildren I would do anything. Home to my homemade lasagna and garlic bread. All the ones that were here are now gone home. Heather is in her room, Robert left to get John and Hope from Awana and Shawn and family are in there room. It’s just me the dogs and too much time to think on my hands.

Mom had a really rough day yesterday. I went to see her yesterday morning at the nursing home she looked really bad still and a lot of coughing and flem. Once home I settled in to make the lasagna so it would be easier for today. Heather and family went to Bass Pro I wasn’t invited they were happy to see me home cooking for them and the guest they had invited for today. CJ had to go to work and Shawn was home with me and kids. I got a call from Betty Mom was in trouble I asked her if she wanted me to ride with her and she said no I’m gonna go straight. If I’d have gone she would have had to picked me up. So I sat and waited and worried. Finally she called saying that the hospice nurse was there and that they weren’t sure if it was anxiety or a heart attack. But once given the anxiety med she calmed down and went to sleep. The nursing home hadn’t give her any of the med since she was brought back from the hospital IDIOTS. Betty said this morning she ate her breakfast and also her lunch and though she was in bed her spirits were good. I’m just really worried. I’ll call her in a bit. Just kind of really depressed and sad along with the worry. And still waiting for something in SSI or SSA so I can get medicaid. They need to hurry up my meds are getting slimmer and slimmer now.