Just Doing in 2015

Not sure the doing is really much, I get up watch the kids leave for school doze in my chair until 8 call Mom, shower and wash dishes by then an hour has passed and I call Mom, sweep and pick up and another hour and call Mom, then I sit for a bit check out whatevers going on in the fb world and play my words with friends and call Mom, get my lunch eat wash dishes and call Mom, call her again while I’m at the bus stop, maybe doze again for a bit and wake and call Mom. You see where this is going right? She gets upset if we don’t the antibiotic has given her confusion and she wants to run away not be there at the hospital. Nights are spent yelling for one of us if we’re not there with her and when we either leave or get off the phone she wants to know if we are coming back or if we promise to call her back. The answer is all the same yes and we do. They changed the antibiotics and we are hoping things settle once she gets back to the nursing home. It’s just tearing us up. I add on top of that the finances here and not knowing if I can pay the mortgage this month on top of having gas to do what’s needed and then not having all the meds I should. Worrying over so many things. I know that God is my answer and that in time all things will be solved in his time. And I know I have to wait and let him do his work. But in the meantime I worry as I’m one of them by nature. And it all adds up til I’m so depressed and thus the sleeping when I’m sitting or rather to be alone than with anyone. She ask me everytime I call NO BABY YET? She’s waiting for him and I know in my heart that’s what is keeping her from letting go. Life is just holding so much and I am having such a hard time with it all right now.