"NUMB IN DENIAL" in "RESTLESS: POETICALLY-SPEAKING"

I’m not dying
This is not some terminal illness
I’ll be fine
As far as I’m concerned, I’m still going to last

I won’t cry
Even if I do, I’ll make sure there are no witnesses
You’ll only see these eyes dry
for I still want to look my best

This shouldn’t be a big deal
This isn’t too hard to take
I can pretend that I don’t feel
This is just another heartbreak

Let’s not talk about it
Love has made me feel sick again
For now, let me stay numb and jaded
because I refuse to acknowledge the same old pain…

R.
(Jakarta, 9/11/2015 – 11:45 pm)