so yesterday i. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

i drank. no i did but that was after everything else happened. i miss writing about my days. I was thinking about that recently. maybe I can get all caught up by the time I leave for London.
um yeah so yesterday I barely slept. the last time this happened was the day i left for amsterdam back in April. It was 7:10 a.m. when A: the sun came streaming in. [to the right and bbehind my bed’s the window] and i’m all who turned on the overhead light? oh wait that’s the sun. god it’s freakin bright. i’m like never up when the sun gets up. And B: the lady tells me we have to leave by 8 to get to my dr.’s appt which is at 9:30. which she told me yesterday and not um Thurs. and I’m just like ‘ok’.
I think the other reason I have broken sleep is so I don’t oversleep and miss my appt./flight/other. although that doesn’t make sense cause A don’t sleep as deeply as I used to being that i have, as put, broken sleep. But I developed that habit back when I slept deep.er. usually when I wake up like every hr. or something. by the door alarm or w/e I’m too tired to be annoyed by it.
yeah so anyway. I actually got up at 7:20 and was ready by 7:40. when the lady saw I was ready she’s like ‘i didn’t mean to rush you’. well it’s better to be ready early than late. I’m always at least a half hr. early to the movies. when I go by myself. which hasn’t been in awhile.
yeah so when we got to the hospital we had valet parking which I don’t think I’ve ever had before. and. she wasn’t sure which office to go to but the sign said Rose Family Medicine and I’m like maybe it’s there and right after she’s like ‘oh is that it? yeah I just said that. we took the elevator to the basement where the office is. At the front desk I changed my address. The front desk lady was cute. then i got weighed the usual stuff. they didn’t tell me what it was but given that I’ve been eating more lately it’s probably ok. um so then the nurse guy left and after 10 mins. Megan my dr. came in.
I asked her my questions on BC [birth control] and she answered them. I also told her I wanted my blood taken since i, don’t know my blood type. and that would be good to know. Well apparently when they do that they don’t just do it to er for you to know your blood type. which I didn’t know prior to this. They also test for anemia, um hep and diabetes. i don’t see how i could have hep since i haven’t exchanged blood w/ anyone in the last.........uh..........5 yrs. [no wait i’m wrong i stand corrected. the 2nd time i was raped i was 23 and there was blood. um. yeah. i’m 28 now btw]. my uncle has diabetes. not that i mind those 2 tests or anything. It’s the anemia thing that gets me. like i know i have it. i’m pretty sure i have undiagnosed anemia. that’s one reason i’m always so damn cold. For me it’s not harmful but for some people it is. yes and that’s why i never wanted to test for it. confidentiality reasons. But I told her I wanted the results mailed to me and that helps a little. cause that way I can look at them when i’m ready to. oh they also test to see if your liver and kidneys are ok which i think mine are. well my anemia as of late wouldn’t be due to lack of iron. [yes i’m aware iron’s found in red meat which i don’t eat. well it’s also in milk btw. you can get a lot of it from milk depending on how much you drink. oh and prior to like. the last 2 wks. i’d been drinking a lot of milk, so]. also I think the other reason I was put out by this was cause of how damn tired I was. I really don’t like getting enough sleep. some people are ok w/ this. i’m not. But had my appt. been later in the day i probably would’ve been more anxious. yeah um i recently read that it’s better for people w/ anxiety to have their appts. early in the morning [well. any time in the morning is early for me but some times are earlier than others]. cause that way they’re not sittin around thinkin aboutit. and also i’ve usually had appts. in the morning, so.
right so after Megan & I were done i went to another section of the hospital and had my blood taken. The receptionist there got a copy of my insurance card. [which i always have in the back of my purse but i never need it. just one of those things]. the lady was nice i think she was russian. She asked me if i was ok w/ needles which i am. some aren’t. and then. So then the lady [the lady i’m living w/ i mean] and i went to the bank so she could cash my check. and then back to my house where I got my grocery bags. and then I went to the store where i realised. She’d forgotten to give me my card. I called her and she realised that’s why i was calling her. I did a bit of grocery shopping w/ cash. Prior to this happening i went to the liquor store which is right next to the grocery store. they didn’t have dragonfruit bacardi or um.........malibu at that one. I was all about to ask something about whiskey shooters when i both remembered and noticed that they had fireball in their bin. well nvrm then.
back to the store. [ok so it was. dr.s appt. > bank > house > i stopped by the grocery store then the liquor store then i went back to the grocery store].
While I was outside the grocery store a chile somehow got on my coat. i took care of it. at least i hope that’s what it was.
So she came gave me my card then left. I did my shopping. i got 2 vitaminwaters and 2 oddwalla banana nut bars since i hadn’t eaten anythingyet and also i was wicked thirsty. yeah winter makes me thirsty. and I sat down in their little hidden cafe area and had a vitaminwater and the bars. it was nice. quiet. far away from people and yet it’s in the store. A lady and a guy were talking about wisconsin. well they were both from there madison and milwaukee. I’ve never been but i know someone else from there.
After that I did more grocery shopping. I got burritos, english muffin dudes and accidentally got 3 more bottles of vitaminwater instead of 2. i usually buy things in even numbers. i realised this when i purchased them. I didn’t have more on my card to get more stuff, so. i’m like maybe i should leave before something else happens.
So a few mins. after we got back to the house I went upstairs and i went to sleep. It’s the first time since I moved in [i moved in sept. 24th i think] that I’d done that. That was around 2. apparently right before that evan called. I woke up at 4:30 did my laundry 2 loads. and all that.
had dinner. I had um...............scrambled eggs. she said we were having breakfast but i somehow thought she said brocolli cause well. my hearing’s not great. and then she said something about eggs and rice. i told her i just wanted eggs. cause i don’t have them w/ anything else. also idinno eggs don’t really go w/ rice. brocolli does i think. it’s a color and meal thing for me. like rice is a dinner food. and also it’s too similiar in color to eggs.
right so. like i said i drank last night. the fireball. that fireball’s stuff’s good. and got some of my xmas gifts ready. well i made them they’renot. they’re not wrapped yet nor are they printed out. or anything. so that took awhile.
and that was it. so yeah long day. and it’s now 3 a.m.