I Keep... in meh...

I keep thinking that I have to have it all together before I make a committment to something that I know will be long lasting.

After thinking about my last entry, I guess in a way I am being selfish regarding my mother. Like I’m ducking and dodging responsibility. It stems from the fact that my life won’t be my own again.

Or maybe my life being my own was an illusion from the start.

:-(