Last day of the year in Hello

Have a busy day tomorrow and a then 1 final day off in the new year before I have to start work again. I hate the idea of having to go back to work. I think I am burnt out from my job. It's a thankless job being in a support role where you do everything for everyone and never get recognised for it, anywho f**k work I still have 2 days of fun before I have to think of that.

Sis 2 touchwood and thankfully is pregnant, its after 3 years of being married. They were very much wanting a kid for a while now but her constant health issues didn't allow them to try for one. She was telling me last night that she saw videos of women delivering babies and is freaked at the idea of having to deliver. She may be thinking of a C-section as an easier way out but is still contemplating on what time do coz.she likes to go natural with most things. She does have another couple of months to decide though as she has only recently found out that she is pregnant. Fingers crossed that everything goes smoothly for her. Hubby was relieved to hear that sis is preggers as he worried that I might not be able to get pregnant due to a family history of problems with conception, in a way it takes the pressure off me a little knowing that I have an option even at a little older age coz honestly I'm not prepared for a baby right now, I'm perhaps atleast another 6 months away from wanting to even consider trying. But I'd love to stretch that to maybe even a year. I guess I hate the idea of being an adult and being responsible for someone else's existence coz at the moment I feel like I've not even lived my own life completely let alone giving it up altogether for the rest of my life. I guess like my marriage this too has to come in its own time and maybe it won't be perfect or what I had imagined it to be like my marriage isn't but maybe I'll learn to adapt and teach myself to enjoy the journey for what it is!

No plans for tonight, might go out to watch the fireworks or just stay home and watch TV, its a crazy night anyway with a whole lot of ruckus about nothing!! I wish I was away from the city camping somewhere under the open skies! Btw that reminds me to update that I finally went camping with the hubby on Christmas day this year but it was only for one night because of his work schedule, he had to work the Friday before the weekend after Christmas, we were so tempted to call in sick and continue our vacation but it's a horrible time to do such stuff you come under scrutiny on doing such acts also considering that he is still in his probationary period it's not really a sensible thing to do now isn't it! So yeah it was just the 1 night but we had good fun.

Honestly I'm in a sucky mood right now as I'm worried about quite a few things but I can't be bothered writing about them right now. I've been up since 4 am now heading on to 6 in the morning and no sleep to be seen around the corner but I'm glad I've got today off not like I'm going to get to sleep in the day! Edit: Just remembered I'm 3 days away from my period so that kinda explains the mood!

I shopped like crazy this season for clothes. I've put on too much weight and none of my clothes fit me so I've spent around $200 on clothes shopping buying work and casual wear, I've never shopped like this in.Australia, I usually shop like when I'm in India coming on to Australia but never here so it felt weird to simply buy without worrying about the money. Now I'm going to hate seeing the credit card bill when it arrives but I'll just pay some money onto it before the bill arrives to get a lesser shock. No money going towards the mortgage this month! Thankfully I've got some savings in there to cover the monthly debit. Oh how I wish that through some miracle my house was paid off, I'd stop working the day I win that lottery!!!!!

And on that dreamy note I'll end this post. Hope you all had a good Christmas and wishing everyone.a very happy and a prosperous new year :) I'll write my new years resolutions in the new year haha ;)