Another week down. in Since OD is shutting down....

It’s been a pretty good week and I’m glad that I’m off tomorrow and Monday. Super annoyed that Monday is a fucking holiday thought but I have enough in the bank to pay my student loans. I was able to schedule the payment to come out on the 13th so it won’t be taken right away. I could have put it off but I just wanna get it paid so I don’t have to worry about it until next month.

I worked all day today with this older lady who I can’t fucking stand. She’s just a fucking bitch that’s always quiet unless she’s bitching to someone about someone else. Today I didn’t wear my visor (we are supposed to but I just don’t unless someone makes me) and she asked if I forgot it and I said no that it was in the car and then I come in and my manager told me to put it on so I’m pretty sure she fucking said something about it. This pisses me off that she’s so fucking concerned about me and what I’m doing. I asked my manager if she said something and she of course said no but I know better. I seriously can’t stand this bitch and she should be more worried about herself instead of the people around her. UGH!

The Adderall is working like a charm. I have a much longer attention span, I have no appetite whatsoever and feel more awake and alive than I have in a long time. I honestly wish I would have been put on this shit a long fucking time ago. It’s really helping me stay focused and it makes me constantly keep moving. I absolutely love the affects except for the dry mouth, headaches and I have trouble sleeping, even with the help of my Tylenol Pm’s.

It just feels so good to be back to my life and my routine. I got my niece when I got off work tonight and she’s watching tv getting ready to pass out. I’m gonna turn her tv off soon or else she’ll stay up until I do. I’m gonna get her breakfast in the morning and take her with me to Walmart because I gotta get my diabetic pill, have someone fix my glasses because the screw came undone and I gotta get groceries and some toilet paper. I am so ready to get the Walmart trip over but I gotta get my shit done too. I’m going to take my niece with me and then see if her parents wanna come with us to the park.

I had to give my GM a ride to her car after I got off and told her what happened with Dan. She went to get out and the door creaked really loud and she just couldn’t believe the shit that guy has done to me and my vehicle. I told her I’m never getting in another relationship and about how much he mooched off me and how I wasn’t allowed to talk about work.

It’s just so crazy how glad I am to be away from him. I’ve never wanted to get away from someone after a month. It’s just nice not having someone mooching off me and having to do whatever they wanted every fucking day. It’s so nice to be able to just come home, eat and go to bed. I love how much my life has settled down and I just just be myself again.

He didn’t love me, he loved the person he was trying to turn me into. I am going to be my own person and if that means I will stay single, I am more than okay with that. I’m not going to change for anyone.

Anyways, I’m going to watch some tv and go to bed. I’ll be up early because I have a little one.