On Second Thought... in meh...

…I am bothered by this.

This is the type of behavoir that she displays and I guess because I’ve always been “okay” with it she deems it okay.

Her: You never invite me into your social life.
Me: You don’t invite me into your social life, but I don’t trip. Maybe you just didn’t want to hang with me at this particular place.

I’m not bothered that she was hanging with someone else, doing something else. What bothers me, is that we had a plan. An alleged solid plan. She was “excited” about us getting together. So excited that she was off all day and dragged ass and gave no regard to the fact that we were supposed to get together before I went to class. She could have done part of what she was doing, got with me, then finished what she was doing.

Am I the only person who believes that time is sacred? That promises are sacred? Commitment is sacred?

One of her accusations towards me was that I didn’t like who she became when she was with her guy. I didn’t mind that. It’s the selfish behavoir that everything hinges on her. It’s the selfish behavoir that if she breaks a plan someone was looking forward to, her attitude about it is, “Eh, you’ll be alright.”

Yeah I will be. But again, in future, I know how to maneuver with you. And when I start maneuvering, that’s when people’s feelings get hurt. My defense? Hey. You fucked me first. ::shrugs:: What you want me to do?

I used to be sweet. I still am, but I have a hard cynical shell now. This is how I came to have it. Years of living with shit like this.

I’m good.
Hope your day is great.

Kindest regards,
Sister