Anxietyish in The Awesome Chronicles of me.

Sept. 14, 2015, 8:17 p.m.
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These four things I KNOW ARE TRUE:

1) My anxiety kind of hit me again this weekend. ><

2) I had a decent weekend outside that.

3) I GOT THE CUTEST FFXIV MINION OMG.

4) SPORTS!

so here we go......

My weekend was........ ok. I had a small anxiety attack on saturday. I just felt drained emotionally, physically and kind of mentally. I dunno. More on that in a second. Friday/Saturday night and sunday night I played FFXIV and got THIS CUTE GUY OMG:
I rolled a 99 (Out of 99)

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SO CUTE!!!!!!! (And almost it was tempting to sell, it goes for like 2.5 million bucks on the market board) But i’m glad i kept him.

So. Saturday, I said i’d help out my local gaming group (That i frequent almost every month) to help promote the convention I’m going to in november, and there was a convention which was like 5 minutes away. And this was where the anxiety hit. I have no clue why, I knew people there, i was invited for board games after i was done and I didn’t go. (That also compounded to the fact that I had to get my mom and get my brothers car for her cause hers broke down friday) And i really wanted to go home. So who knows.

So Sunday I watched football for a while. I am trying my best to keep calmer this year. I’m happy the packers won. Something you won’t see me do is trash talk, (That is different than razzing friends, but what i’m saying is i don’t like the fact of saying YOUR TEAM SUCKS AND IS GOING DOWN. Then if said team that you said sucks wins, you feel like an idiot, that and i’m just bleh.)

And today, my mom and I went to cranberry (on impulse cause we were supposed to go to cranberry wednesday) I needed a FFXIV Time card, and I checked out the one FLGS and Barnes and noble (Which I got forbidden desert for 13 bucks. Half off. yay)

So now a bit of a serious talk.
Lately across a few friends on Facebook And some other posts lately, and its bashing Football my favorite Sport.
Now I love football, as i just said, I will watch the packers (or follow the game on twitter) and watch one or two games on sunday, one neutral game but thats about it.. however..I am tired of people bashing football. Someone said it is a Distraction. YOURE DARN RIGHT ITS A DISTRACTION. Life can be rough sometimes, and Especially after my anxiety attack on saturday and the Packers game really helped me relax and enjoy myself.
Something else that people don’t understand is.. I am a shy and awkward person in real life. Seriously. If i’m somewhere and someone says “Oh have you seen X movie lately or listened to the new whatever is new music wise?” I’ll just smile and nod and say either yes or no. Usually no. But if someone says “Hey did you see the Giants/cowboys game last night or.. how about that seahawks/rams overtime game? (Which i didn’t watch the NYG/DAL game I did follow it on twitter and i saw what happened) I can talk about that and football for a long time. (This and gaming are the biggest ice breakers for me) So its a great icebreaker for me to talk about)

But what about the violence in the game what about the people being FELONS and such (the felons thing REALLY BOTHERS ME)? Welp. There are bad seeds in all lines of work, and does it suck because these people are supposed to be a higher regard.. and i can’t do anything about that, i kind of just am meh.

The violence factor. Once again it sucks, but there is chance of injury and pain for all lines of work and sports, and I really hope that the NFL does something about this, id rather see the game go a bit softer in terms of hitting and that to make games safer, but it’ll never be 100% safe. I like watching the big (legal) hits, but for me, i love the idea of you are trying to get this little ball 10 yards or more and there are 11 men trying to stop you in any way possible. I like the strategy, tactics of the game and I LOVE the history of football (And all sports in general)

Finally the issue of Tax payer funded stadiums..I think i’m in the minority here But guess what? I like them. I think stadiums and sports can raise morale of a city and I don’t mind helping pay for them. Do i think owners should help pay for it? Yeah. But i think its not all gloom and doom.

Moral of the story: I LIKE FOOTBALL.

One person i know offline and online EVERY football season basically RIPS football to shreds and defends hockey to the point of idiocy (saying stuff like all football players are felons, and its stupid, and when me and other friends are watching football he complains and moans.. and this is the same person who blames Marc Andrey Flurey FOR EVERYTHING.. lose a game 1-0 while dodging 50 shots? BLAME FLEURY.. and his wife, OMG. I think she can be worse, yelling at black hockey players to get to football or basketball, its REALLY ANNOYING)Ugh. And because of that particular person and his wife Hockey has really gone downhill.

Anyway.. time for kitty pictures:

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