right so i don't trust her in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

and why would i.

steph did warn me. like twice. once back in like feb. and the 2nd time recently. she said um. she was losing patience w/ me or something. and ya know. i always knew it was a possibility. like yeah if i don’t do what i should or do enough of it or something i’d move. but i always ignored it. and also it wasn’t a reality then. and also. ya know it’s not like this last time she gave me time to think about it before deciding. it wasn’t like ‘okso by next fri. i’m going to make a decision about you moving’ or anything. no. and so now bc of that i don’t trust that she’ll give me time. cause she hasn’t before. it was always ‘at some point in time’ but that point was never stated. it was just like oh whenever.
ya know. i’m one of those people who will give someone a chance untill they give me a good enough reason not to. i’ll trust someone untill..........yeah. but it seems like every time i do lately it always backfires. so maybe i should be one of those people that people have to actually work to earn my trust. and have to prove to me that they’re worthy of it. idinno. or maybe i’ll just continue being this way.