oh give me one more chance/trying to win her back/i'm goin down in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

in the words of the jackson 5. i feel like. w/ the move thing steph’s run out of chances to give. me. and maybe in a way she has. but at the same time if she really felt that way she would’ve. like. presumably told me ‘ok well you’re moving by next wk.’ or w/e. and that hasn’t happened. and now since discovering all this i’ve been trying to win her back. which to me implies says that i feel like i’m losing her. er well in a way i am. i mean she’s not she’s not er well ‘gone’, exactly. like she’ll still be in her house and i’ll still have her # and all that. i just won’t be in her house once i’ve moved. even though she signed the resignation form or w/e it is however it exactly happened. i’m still hoping to change her mind. but once a person’s signed something they can’t like. un,sign it.
there’s this song by mary j. blige that i think is quite good. i like that one and the xmas one. those are the only 2 songs of hers i’ve heard. so i don’t have a lot to compare it to. but anyway. the song’s entitled ‘ [i’m] goin down’. and in it she sings about ‘what’d i do wrong ........ since you been gone’. and that’s how i feel. i mean i know i’ve fuked up a lot and um. i know there are things i obviously should’ve done.
i don’t entirely understand the reasoning behind this decison. please don’t tell me as i’ll bring it up w/ my emotions dr., so.