Pinching... in A Day in the Life of Me

..Every cent I can everywhere. From grocerys with running around for bargains and collecting points here there and everywhere with things like Checkout 51 and other points programs, to spending countless hours on Swagbucks to try and earn as many points as i can to get gift cards to do christmas shopping with, even if it is only Amazon cards to order things with (scouting has shown decent prices if you hunt).
So far so good, i have over $20 on my checkout 51 and I’ve (slowly) banked over 2400 on swagbucks.. running videos as i type this lol.
The day he can get back to work will be amazing, but for now i am determined to make this work.
Its just the fear of the paperwork that has me in a choke mostly.
The uncertainty kills us both. I mean seriously, what are we going to do if it gets denied?
Obviously we try to not think about it, and it is a worst case thing, but anyone who’s done the immigration dance knows how I feel.
We have a great lawyer, and great friends helping us with said lawyer, that’s our saving grace for sure.
I wish I had some of the luck that other people have and i was able to pick some winning lotto numbers, not even for a huge jackpot, but just enough to pay off everything/one and for us to be secure for the next little bit..
ahh dreams /le sigh. lol