shock relief sad uh oh in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

right so idk if i’ve mentioned this but when my mom i were out of the dental building she told me the news that i’m moving. and at first i was shocked. and then after a few hrs. i was relief. and then sad. and now uh oh. like i know i’m not but i don’t believe that. that being that i feel like i’m being punished. like ‘well you fuked up so much that i’m done’. well i mean i have fuked up a lot but that’s not how steph and the others would phrase it. they’d be all nice about it. and also i don’t want to believe the opposite. that i’m not. but also. if that was really the case then maybe she would’ve done it a long time ago. been like ‘ok well i’m sending you off to punish you’ in a sense.