evan news. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

yeah so he called. and he’s spiking out again only this time he sounds sad. and that makes me sad. and i told him i wish there was something i could do and he’s like i wish there was something anyone could do. instead of being like ‘awww thanks but there isn’t much anyone can do’. actually i probably would’ve done the same thing. like when he’s nice to me and tells me i deserve this that or the other thing i tell him ‘you’re sweet’. but there is stuff people can do! for one he could actually you know talk to me about what’s going on. be like ‘well this annoyed me’ or ‘this made me so angry’ instead of being vagye about it. he really isn’t good at communicating. and he refuses to admit he has depression or w/e he thinks it’s all part of someone’s personality. and this and his not being good at communicating makes it hard for me. and i think he knows that. i supposed i should be more understanding esp. since we are together but i’m just not. that understanding a person. all i can do is listen and be there. which i did when we were on the phone. i stayed quiet. and he told me he can’t talk to me about it. or anyone. or well he said something like that. and i’m like ‘why’ and he’s like ‘i just. no’ and i’m ‘ok i’m confused but i’ll stop’. and i did. again i just wish i understood. you tell me no and half the time i won’t push it. he also thinks everyone’s watching him which they’re not but i didn’t tell him that this time though i have. i believe that he believes that but i don’t believe it. yeah he’s paranoid. and so i told him ‘that sounds hard. sorry i know that’s apparent but i don’t know what else to say’. well i do but i won’t.