evan & i. strawberry. and quiet. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

yes this again.

so yesterday was. long. and yet it went by quickly. my days are so long that i’ll thinkof something that happened that morning [like ok on tues. i’ll think of something that happened tues. morning for instance] and i’m like ‘that was today? my god that feels like that was last wk.’

um so we got together. and it was. ok. we either have really good days or just ok ones. he calls me at 1:40 and he’d just woken up. we said we’d do something between 1:30 and 2. so. he got there [oh ‘there’ being my park] at 2:10. he’d brought ice cream his friend bought him. for his mouth. [for evan’s i mean not his friend’s]. i was all singing when i saw him [nina simone, ‘feelin good’ if you’re wondering’]. i decided to walk around cause i was bored. so we um went to the tunnel split a chai i’d gotten from the store. cause i wanted more [as in, i’d had a bottle previously]. and just cuddled and didn’t talk a whole lot. he had stuff on his mind. 10 mins. before i had to go i just sat there against him unsure of what to do. i know guys aren’t big on talking about their emotions. well a lot of them and he’s no exception. all i told him was ‘i’m here for you’. he gets this glazed look in his eyes it’s something i haven’t seen in awhile. i think i handled it quite well.

uh right so prior to that. well i’d gone to safeway and had gotten strawberries. cause i thought it would be cutesy and romantic. and it’s something i’d wanted to do for awhile. when he asked ‘what’s the occassion?’ for a minute there i didn’t understandrealise he meant something else so i’m all telling him this and i’m like ‘does there have to be an occassion? can’t i just do it?’. no but we got it figured out. so anyway he had one. a strawberry imean. there’s something sexy about watching him eat a strawberry. oh and then he gave me half of one. yes and that’s why i bought them. is cause i was hoping that would happen. and i shut up for 5 mins. yes! and then i’m like ‘holy fuk........and oh my’. yes. oh........my.

strawberries really are wonderful. well they were before.......