Friday in New Diary

. I had trouble with heart burn last night . It was very painful. Also I thought I was going to throw up a few times. Fortunately, I am feeling a little better now.

My anxiety was a little high. I kept thinking something dreadful was about to happen. Think I was worried about that damned credit card bill. I don’t know what in the hell I was thinking to get that damned card. I cant believe I can be so god damned stupid at times. It was a very bad . I owe $88.18 I wont be able to pay that off until the first. I wont be able to rest until I get the frigging bill paid off so I can cancel that stupid card. What an idiot I should no better .

I. Get depressed thinking about it. I try not to think about it but that is on the back of my mind all the damned time. Why in God’s name did I ever sign up for that stupid credit card is beyond me . I must not have been in my right mind God what an idiot. What a stupid idiot I am.