i'll have to see her *violation thingy* in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

so last time amber stopped by she said she’d call before she does again. well the only day she’d be able to stop by is mon. i think since she doesn’t work on thurs. and fri. again i think. and i’m at my mom’s tues. wed.
well. right now [and this might change in a few months i don’t know] i don’t want to see her again. but i know that if i were to call her up and tell her not to come to the house it would cause a lot of problems for people. bc this is equally about everyone. i just. don’t want it to be about her. at all. and after she stops by the next time i’ll see her is at a meeting. no i’m fukin afraid of her why would i want to see her. well exactly i wouldn’t. i told myself that it won’t be just us 2 in the room. steph and jenn will be there too. yeah that’s not exactly much help though. i don’t even care about amber’s side right now. the next time i see her if she says anything i don’t think is right i’ma write it down. or something. and then tell someone. this has gone on for far too long i’ve been afraid for far too long and yeah that’s partially why. is bc of her. she crossed a line that never should’ve been crossed and she’d probably still be doing it if alex hadn’t stepped in. i’m really lucky alex stepped in. she’s the one who confirmed that amber violated my human rights. so. [and the day before i met alex um. amber still tried to control me. and that wasn’t happening. and it didn’t].
i don’t think amber’s a bad person i just. my view on her’s completely changed. tues. the event that took place tues. was just kinda like ok that’s it i’m done. w/ her. that was where/when it got to that point.