still fukin afraid. *amber/violation thingy* in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

i’m still fukin afraid. to talk to her [‘her’ being amber]. i mean there’s me. not wanting to talk to people cause i’m shy/not v. verbally expressive/w/e. and then there’s. i’m so damn afraid to. and i have reasons to be. and in my mind that’s not ok. ever.