well it's not like i'm going to go chase after you - evan in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

yeah so on um wed. i went to use the facilities at an eatery and. i came back and i said something to evan regarding the above er. yes the above quote/subject of this entry and he said that. right i’m just so used to everyone else being that way. everyone else being on my case about it. like omygod will you let me fukin breathe? and he does. let me breathe in that sense. he trusts me enough to be careful and he knows if something happens i know what to do. i’m not 2 i don’t need him to sit there and hold my hand as it were. [although literally speaking i quite like that].
it’s like he was like ‘you want to leave, leave. you want to stay that’s fine too’. he’s not going to control me unless i want him to or he feels he should and even then when it’s come to that......he still listened. he still didn’t. he wants me to trust him. and while i haven’t always completely i also really feel like the past is behind us that part of it. and thank god he won’t control me. yeah cause that doesn’t work. i’m not meant to be tied down. er i mean..........you know. [wow well ok then]. no he apparently respects the hell out of me.
it’s like that song by the cure when i’m w/ you i am free again. yeah again just like how it felt 2 yrs. ago i want to be w/ /around him bc i feel free. it’s incredibly liberating. no this is great. he’s far from perfect but. the good parts. are really good.