so evan & i are. um. the best option. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

idk. like i’ve had feelings for him for awhile. and we’ve been more than friends for awhile. but now i’m starting to have more. er i mean now i’m starting to have more feelings for him. er i mean deeper yes there we go now i’m starting to have deeper feelings for him. and. i am so legitimately godamn happy omygod.
i don’t. i’m not ready for a full blown relationship. yet which is ok. and i mean. if we decided to have one. and then if we broke up things would never be the same between us. and i don’t think i like that. i care about him too much to hurt him like that. so. yes i want to be us. i want him to be mine and for me to be his. i want to be ‘her’. ya know when guys [or whoever it doesn’t er. it’s not specific to guys only] are like that’s her. that’s. her. i want to do couple things w/ him w/o actually being a couple. this isn’t like an issue or anything i’m just informing. also if he were to move back to like CA or somewheres i. i don’t do long distance relationships. so this seems like the best option.

Last updated August 12, 2015