downtown guy in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

i was thinking about this recently. one morning. i thought about it more in those 20 mins. in that morning then i had in awhile.

it’s been almost 4 yrs. since i last saw downtown guy. that was the first and last time i saw him. it was the wk. before my birthday. and then the wk. after my birthday [actually it was on the 24th that this happened] i was. um. ‘hurt’ though not by him.

anyway. so i was meeting this other guy downtown for a date. and he didn’t show. or something. so i went sat on a bench and this guy who was quite a bit older than me sat. the thing that tipped me the ef off was how calm he was. i blogged about this on FOD when it happened. we talked took the bus to my place. he gave me gummy worms on the bus. which is why i didn’t want to have gummy worms and haven’t since. ............. we got to my place and he began undressing me which i didn’t want. i don’t know if i have a right to be upset about this if i was the one who invited him. i don’t. ever talk about this only like 4 people know. and he stopped. and left. the next minute he rang my doorbell and i’m like ‘i can’t let you in my house i’m sorry’. and he’s like ‘wow i thought you were nice’ or something. so.........when a woman says no in some way or eludes to it she’s a bitch. wow ok.

all this happened. well not the meeting the other guy date thing but the downtown guy bit. as a result of something my mom had eluded to.

more on this later.