Thursday Afternoon in New Diary

I am not doing very well. Depression is down but anxiety is very high. On a scale of one to ten I would rate the anxiety a five. I went outside for a little bit and couldn’t wait to get back in my apartment. I have that uneasy feeling. It is a feeling of dread or something terrible is about to happen. Can’t pinpoint my thoughts that might trigger this feeling because I’m not feeling anything in particular. It is a very uneasy feeling.

Saw my case manager today. She fixed my hearing aid. We talked for a little bit. She was telling me that my doctor is holding up the thing for the worker. He can’t fax the thing down to Charleston because I haven’t seen him in six month. He is going to call down there and then get in touch with me. So that is what is holding uip the process of me getting a worker.

I haven’t done much reading. I try to read then forget what I have read. I just couldn’t concentrate today.

Remember the positives. 1) I am alive. 2) I have a wonderful fiancé 3) I have a nice apartment 4) I have money for meds. 5) I have food to eat and clothes to wear 6) I have phone, internet and tv 7) I am in good physical health I can only think of seven right now but I am grateful for everything I have. Life is good .