Sunday Morning in New Diary

I’ve been on the new meds Celexa for six days. It is working. I do not feel so depressed. One a scale of one to ten I would rate my depression a 2 along with anxiety and paranoia. Still have very low energy and I get tired and frustrated very easily. But I think I getting a lot better as far as the depression goes.

I talked with my fiancé this morning. I was telling her about giving p my computer. She said Rent a Center will work with you . She was renting a computer from them one time and had to give it up She said they offered her a hardship month. They might do that with me since I am a good customer and have excellent credit with them. I said I might talk with them on Monday and see what they say. If they offer me a hardship month I might take them up on it.

I was really sick with yesterday. I had bad heartburn. I was having trouble with heartburn all day yesterday. I mixed a solution of water and baking soda towards the end of the day. I had two cups of that and that cleared up the heartburn good. I felt better last night.

Life is good. I feel kind of sad about giving up the computer. But at the same time I feel relieved. I will have extra money for August. I can use the money to buy some much needed clothes, get a hair cut and my beard shaved off, buy some books from Barnes and Noble. It will be nice not having to worry about the payments because that has been causing a lot of stress and anxiety.

Lets go over the budget one more time. First rent is $241.75. Comcast is $140.00. Rent a Center is $128.25 This leaves me with $139.00. Out of this comes $10 for meds and $20 for laundry. I will have $109.00 left for food and household items

I have been looking in my pantry and freezer. I am well stocked up for food. I have 21 Banquet Homestyle Bakes. I have nine pork chops and a roast in the freezer. I already have enough meals to get me through August. I can spend $50 on food this month and I will have $60 on my EBT card. Perhaps it will not be so bad after all. Things are looking better already.!

I think I am going to keep the computer after all. I like having a computer. I like getting my news online free of charge. I like listening to music on You Tube. I like keeping my journal updated . I get a lot of enjoyment from it I am going to keep it after all

I get anxious and I panic easily. I was going over my budget last night. I thought that I was in pretty bad shape. Now that I am taking stock of everything it doesn’t look so bad after all. Life is good.

Last updated August 02, 2015