New idea. in Since OD is shutting down....

I think I’m gonna call my job tomorrow and let them know I got another job but ask if I can just work a day or two a week because the job I start on Wednesday can only offer 10-15 hours a week so if I would be able to work a couple days where I’m at now, I’d be ok on bills. I don’t know how they’ll feel about that but it’s worth it to ask because I could probably handle it if it wasn’t my main job and if I didn’t have to be there 4-5 days a week. I’m definitely going to call and ask tomorrow.

I got my niece from daycare and then stopped at the store to get a few things and she wanted a little play makeup set so I got it for her. We came to my house for awhile where she put it on herself and then put some on me. It pretty much went on clear and you couldn’t even really see it. I took her home and her Mom was a complete bitch about it. She took her in the bathroom and washed it off. She made me super uncomfortable so I said I wasn’t feeling good and came home. I was about to flip out so I decided it would be better to leave before that happened. I don’t know why the fuck she has to be such a fucking bitch but again, this is why I stayed away for 6 months.

It’s such bullshit that I spend as much time with that kid as possible, take her overnight, buy her stuff, take her to and from daycare and her Mom is still a complete fucking bitch. She’s fucking crazy and I am always worried that I’m not going to be able to hold my tongue. I can only take so much so I think I may not take her this weekend. I’m so tired of being the best aunt I can be and I still get treated like shit! I don’t know how my brother puts up with such a bi-polar bitch but I’ve been over it for quite some time now.

I’m just really stressed out about bills and my job situation so I wish people could treat me a little better but they don’t. They don’t care what problems I have or the face that I deal with them by myself and that really pisses me off. I just can’t stand how fucked up people have become.

I haven’t heard from Matt but if I do, I already know what I’m going to say. I just can’t believe how he talked to me last night but no girl in her right mind would have consented to sex with someone who asks, “so are you gonna let me hit it from the back” um I’m a human being with feelings. I’m not a whore that just don’t give a fuck or have a low enough self-esteem that I’m gonna be like sure, I’ll be right over!! This guy knew better than to say something like to me because I know he knew my personality better but I think it was to test the waters and see what he could get away with. I told him to re-word it and try again and he said, “no” so it’s like ok well I’m gonna go to bed. I’m not coming over to suck you off and let you fuck me. That’s some bullshit!

I really didn’t get any of my calls made today that I needed to but I’m going to tomorrow. I’m still waiting on my check from the hotel and if it doesn’t come tomorrow, it’ll be time to text and ask about it. I need it to pay on my cable bill because it was due on the 7th.

Anyways, I’m gonna watch tv and get ready for bed.