So long status quo in The OpenDiary (OD) Days!

OD Title: So Long Status Quo
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Ok so I’m fucking scared at the moment.
For Luke.
He wasn’t saying much on msn and I can tell he’s really not handling things well there.
I’m just so scared he could do something stupid, and I can’t be there to help him through what he’s going through. If only he realized I’m going through the exact same fucking thing he is with the gay/religion battle. GOD! He told me to leave him the fuck alone.
You can understand why I’m upset and a little bit angry. You try to help someone and they tell you to piss off. Oh well, he can only help himself I guess. I’d just…never forgive myself.

I’ve put the lyrics up to my favourite song at the moment. I find myself the more times I listen to it, the more I love it, and it’s very hard to find a song that does that to me these days. Oh I just love it, and because of it, I have a newfound respect for one Christian singer named Nichole Nordeman.
She’s so pretty too, as she sings one of the songs on my DVD, called ‘Holy’, which is absolutely beautiful as well. I’m watching “The Banger Sisters.” So funny haha. Well the bits I’ve seen between talking on msn with my friends.

After the Australian Open Men’s Tennis Final. Wow, that was pretty cool, well the bit i saw.
I only saw a bit cos my mate Aaron wanted to see me, so I went into the city to see him. As much of a struggle it was to tear my eyes away from the tv, as I absolutely love my tennis :) It was great to see him but we were both pretty tired so there wasn’t too much in-depth conversation happening. We had Sizzler for dinner, and my god was I full by the end of it or what. God that place fills you up. Aaron was so full as well.

I’ve got one more day off. Don’t think I’m gunna do too much. Might go and see Lindsay. I’ve spent $200 this weekend already, just on food and going out tonight. I’ve got my phone bill and rego to pay yet and I believe rent comes out this week as well, so that’s like $800 cringes. I’m gunna leave it as late as I can to pay them, so I can actually get some money. God I still haven’t told Nev I wanna move out. I’m such a wuss.

Vicky’s party was a lot of fun last night. She is ‘Mystical Wild’ here on OD but I don’t believe she writes in her diary anymore, but she does have the net back now so hopefully! It was fun, met her uncle and aunty and saw Dean from highschool and a few other friendly faces. The whole night was hilarious. They are just a group of people where anything goes - say what you want no matter how offensive or out-there it happens to be. Mark was flirting with a straight cute guy and freaking him out. God he has some confidence, my ex does lol! I wouldn’t be able to do that. He was like, ‘wow you’re a quiet one, but you’re cute, so it’s okay’. Stuff like that. This guy (whose name was Joel) I think took it as a compliment haha. When we went inside, Mark sat on the right hand side of the couch, I sat in the middle and Vicky’s friend Nikki sat on the left. Joel came inside, and I think has a thing for Nikki so sprawled himself on top of Nikki and myself. God I wasn’t complaining! He was gorgeous!

Mark said, “Hey! Where’s my part of the action?” so Joel moved his leg so it also covered Mark’s knee. That made him happy. It was real sweet of him actually. I think he liked the attention of all three of us. Even when we left he gave Mark and I both a goodbye hug. I think he was Vicky’s next door neighbour. It was a fun night, with the alcohol bringing the fun out in everyone. I even made a comment when they were talking about Vicky and her birth. I said, “Yeah, she was one that missed the tonsils…” I was amazed I didn’t get attacked by her fingernails. She’s my best girlfriend, I can get away with it ;). I was relieved everyone got it and laughed :) But her new house is gorgeous. It’s about 50 kilometers away, so at least closer than Toowoomba and fairly accessible by train.

Oh wow I just saw an ad on tv for angelflight. That is sooo sweet. www.angelflight.org.au
I might check that out later. Speaking of sweet, on the train on the way home, I sat across from these two guys, who although were talking with each other, were also using hand actions. They were speaking to each other in sign language. I’m presuming one was slightly hearing-impaired. It was sweet to see though. Just mates, and the fact that a mate of theirs is willing to learn sign-language to communicate with them, I just find really encouraging, and justified.

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 0:00:00 GMT

OD Notes…

Sometimes El Gallo
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Sun, 29 Jan 2006 3:31:15 PM GMT
My gay/religion battle was one of the most integral moments of my life. Its something you have to face, and its real hard, but you become stronger for it.

He’s got to find the strength in himself, there isn’t much you can do. :-/

Take care.

SEPIA
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Sun, 29 Jan 2006 6:53:55 PM GMT
<font color="tan"> hugs

ryn: thanks!!

alwayssomeguy
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Sun, 29 Jan 2006 8:55:43 PM GMT
As one who has been through the whole moving out of an apartment thing…let me tell you…even if you don’t get along with them…it’s best to tell them…because I can’t say that I did the same thing…of course mine was a ginormous douche, but you know…whatever…

J HENRY
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Sun, 29 Jan 2006 9:42:57 PM GMT
The only sign language I know is of the vulgar kind

C-Dub85
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Sun, 29 Jan 2006 10:44:39 PM GMT
Sign language was my foreign language in high school..so yeah, it’s pretty cool. I will keep you AND Luke in my prayers…he will get through this. Take care mate!

tisk
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Sun, 29 Jan 2006 1:00:07 AM GMT
My mother learnt sign languare, she doens’t used it at all, but knows it well.

jessicah
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Thu, 2 Feb 2006 1:34:57 PM GMT
I learnt Auslan (Australian sign language) in high school, it was so much fun to learn. Even now, when I’m talking to a non- hearing impaired person, I still find that i sign a lot of my words whilst talking at the same time…it’s almost a habit.

It’s always nice when I see friends or siblings communicating with each other thru sign…going that extra step for friendship :-)

txthang21
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Tue, 21 Feb 2006 7:23:08 PM GMT
random passerby I love Nichole Nordeman, too. check out “Small Enough” with Fernando Ortega :-)

Oh, and I’m so putting you on faves!

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