so i heard from richard. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

remember Richard the guy I really hit it off w/? well if you don’t he’s the guy I. yeah.

so I emailed him last er ‘last’. like yesterday/last night/this a.m. saying I hadn’t heard from him in awhile. I brought up the last email i’d sent him. in that email I said I was confused as to why I hadn’t heard from him.
well apparently he’d been out of the country the last month. or so he’s typed. I don’t know why he didn’t tell me prior to leaving unless it was one of those last minute things. I mean. if I’ve hit it off w/ someone and then I don’t hear from them in awhile at least let me know I won’t be hearing from you. them. whoever. this is the problem i had w/ evan although actually he’s gotten better about letting me know i wouldn’t/won’t be hearing from him. ya know something like ‘hey I won’t be available for the next month’ or however long. I don’t really need to know why or anything. if they want/need/feel they should tell me and are going to that’s ok. but that’s not the point.

idk if i’ll set up a date w/ him or not. richard i mean not evan. i’m paranoid that people are somehow going to find out. about it. and then they’ll want to meet him and all that. and ya know I want that to remain private. I mean my friend Mark knows I might or might not be going on a date. so it’s not like no one knows. and far as I know he won’t tell anyone. no i’ll choose to tell certain people about things like this.

also idinno if i’m in a good place emotionally for that. bc of this whole. people passing thing. I mean that’s kindof a big thing.