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In piggybacking off the last entry, there’s a guy on my evening bus. First time I saw him, I thought he was attractive, but there was something that made me stay away. He would glance at me and I only know this because while I was “reading” I was glancing at him too.

(sidebar: I do actually read on the bus, but things catch my eye and I get distracted, that’s all…)
One of the things that made me stay away is the fact that I refuse to bus date. LOL It’s for some people, not for me. Another thing is that he started talking and his voice reminded me of Delroy Lindo (an actor) and that was kind of gross to me. I don’t know why I don’t like Delroy Lindo’s voice I just don’t.

A few weeks ago he approached me on the bus to ask if I was a reader and to invite me to his book signing/launch on why men need to treat their women right. Showed me a copy of the book, on the back it displayed he and his wife. I just thought, how sweet, and nothing more. Then he kept talking to me a little. So I told him if I could I would try and make it. I couldn’t so i didn’t.

Fast forward a few days…
Saw him that Monday on the bus, but it wasn’t until Tuesday or Wednesday that he said the book signing was off the chain. I said congratulations. Then he pretended to be on the phone. I respect a persons relationship so I don’t go out of my way to make friends with people who have someone. I have a hard time because I’m single and my male friends s/o’s think ill of me because I’m single when I’ve not displayed any thoughts of wanting their men. Anyway. I just tend to ignore him. I say hello once I’m seated and acknowledge that he’s there. Otherwise, I don’t care where he is.

YESTERDAY…
I got on the bus. It was raining. I called my son to tell him I may need him to meet me with my umbrella. Then I realized that he found an audience with someone and was talking away. I for one like the quiet on the way to and from work if I decide to read. Otherwise I listen to music. So after I put in my ears, he looked up and waved at me. I waved and continued to lip synch, but I noticed he kept watching me, glancing as he was speaking to this other person. Again, I just notice things. I’m an observer. So he is preparing to get off the bus, but he is doing all of this movement and putting on his jacket and grabbing his back pack and trying to nonchalntly glance to make sure I was watching. I don’t want him. He told me about his wife. I will speak and say hello. Then he seems to be one of those guys who think that he is educating his brothers and sisters by reiterating that whole, “Well, you KNOW Missouri was the last place to free their slaves…” I hate those people. Anytime anything racial comes up dealing with Missouri or St. Louis that’s one of the first things that comes up. I don’t give a shit. Give me something new.

So then he gets off the bus. I laugh to myself thinking about how all that movement was for me. It was wildly not received as I’m sure it was suppose to.

Look brother, you told me you were married, I’m not going to look at you. I don’t like you, nor do I want to get to know you. Just. Stop. Please.

If I wanted him to notice me, it would be like bugs to repellant. ::smh::

Done again…
Sister

Last updated July 07, 2015